Discussion Is it wrong to want to make people hate you so they miss you less when you CTB

[squillykilly]

Lately I've been having ideas of making everyone I love hate me. Then they won't miss me when I CTB. But it would also cause me more pain rather than peace the idea of even after death they with view me as my terrible actions. It would damage me so bad, but then again, I'd be gone.
I'm just losing it lately...

 

[caesium]

I don't really know if it's wrong but I don't know if it would be effective. It would take a lot to make someone go from loving you to hating you. Also if you ctb, then your actions leading up to that might be seen as a product of what you were going through, so it might cause them more guilt to think they didn't "recognize the signs" or something.