
snooperdooper
Member
- Jan 27, 2024
- 83
So, I think I am eternally (or however eternal life) stuck in this horrible, horrible position. I am 19, but I have almost no independence. My parents control all of my finances, I am stuck living at home with them, and I don't know how to drive. I tried to CTB by getting SN but they intercepted the package at the mailbox and now I literally don't have the key to open the mail. So I can't even discreetly purchase items to CTB. I want so desperately to scream at them about how they are forcing me to suffer here and how I hate them and how selfish they are, but I know that would only make things worse. I would end up in a mental hospital because they would NEVER give me the satisfaction of letting me CTB. I can't even gain some independence for myself because I have neither the motivation or energy to do so. I mean, I'm literally depressed how am I supposed to pull myself up by my bootstraps and work to get my own home or go to college or learn how to drive?
So now I feel stuck. I literally do not know if it is even possible to break free from this hellish cycle of suffering. I mean, what do you think? Am I just stuck here forever? What the fuck do I do?!?!?!
So now I feel stuck. I literally do not know if it is even possible to break free from this hellish cycle of suffering. I mean, what do you think? Am I just stuck here forever? What the fuck do I do?!?!?!