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Is ctb truly the solution to your problem

  • Yes

    Votes: 32 54.2%
  • No

    Votes: 5 8.5%
  • Kind off

    Votes: 22 37.3%

  • Total voters
    59
FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,059
Permanently ceasing to exist would solve everything for me as after all what I ultimately have a problem with is existence itself, to me existence just feels like a cruel mistake that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there was never a need for at all and I find it such a terrible tragedy how this existence was even imposed, I personally just wish to be non-existent free from the torturous, futile burden of existing, all that can bring me peace is being permanently unconscious for all eternity. No matter what I'd prefer to peacefully not exist than be enslaved in this horrific reality where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just waiting to die anyway, I find it terrifying how a human can exist for so long just to be tortured in agony by old age, I'd never wish for such terrible, pointless suffering rather I just want peace instead, for me non-existence is all that's desirable, I see existence as deeply undesirable in every way, I'd never wish to be conscious of anything at all rather I wish to be permanently unable to suffer instead.
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

I have finally found my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
5,795
Yes, it would because I'll be in harms way for as long as I'm alive. Once I'm dead, I will no longer suffer and I will no longer be subjected to the inherent risks of life
 
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RULE8AM

RULE8AM

Hermetic era
Dec 11, 2024
33
If i had at least 5 million available to me right now i most likely wouldn't ctb. I'd put it in a savings account & live off the dividends.

I had an office job for a month & i never want to work for someone ever again.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,339
Yes me killing myself would solve every problem of mine instantly and forever.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
it's the only solution
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
3,971
Persistent depressive disorder. Only one way to make it end...
 
abndnd33990

abndnd33990

Member
Jan 2, 2025
47
I know it's not the solution but I'm tired of trying.
 
The Unanswered Q

The Unanswered Q

Student
Jan 1, 2025
129
Probably isn't, but I'm too lazy to fix my problems.
 
Awesomefoid67

Awesomefoid67

she/it, terminally silly :3
Sep 10, 2024
787
i think so but i change my mind on it alot i think idk
 
lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
388
Money is the solution for 90% of my problems. The rest I would manage to live with for a little while longer.
But ultimately life itself is the problem.
I don't know.
Money. I need the stupid fucking money.
 
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Reflection

Reflection

Arcanist
Sep 12, 2024
406
Unfortunately the solution is not something I get to decide or have so that leaves death.
 
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ShatteredSerenity

ShatteredSerenity

I talk to God, but the sky is empty.
Nov 24, 2024
674
Suicide is more of an escape than a solution for many of my problems. I want to live in order to be there for my family, but I can't bear living with severe mental illness so I want to escape the pain.
 
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Young

Young

Student
Dec 8, 2024
111
It isn't the only solution, but it's complicated.

With ctb there would be no more problems, that's for sure...
 
Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
744
It causes the problem to disappear for me, because I will disappear.

I can do many things that are socially acceptable solutions, cut my losses and go back to therapy and maybe get better with coping mechanisms I've always known about, run away to another country and pretend I don't know my past, or continue what I'm doing, aimlessly wandering on autopilot.

CTB is not the only solution, but a solution, if that makes sense. I have options, but death is easier and I would no longer suffer.
 
bananaolympus

bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
394
Well suicide is a permanent solution to permanent problems so yeah unless i wanted to suffer for decades
 

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