Help Is anyone thinking about committing suicide soon? And what's the method you will use?

[rhonda]

Just gonna get wasted then Thelma and Louise my car off the side of the mountain...done caring...no thought involved...no coming back...3500ft straight down

 

[wordsonscreen]

Just gonna get wasted then Thelma and Louise my car off the side of the mountain...done caring...no thought involved...no coming back...3500ft straight down

which mountain! Lemme join! :P

 

[rhonda]

which mountain! Lemme join! :P

The Rockies

which mountain! Lemme join! :Pi

I'll be Louise lol ;)

 

[Aloken]

Everyone on this site says not to ctb on impulse, plan everything out. But I'm starting to think that you won't be able to do it unless it's on an impulse cuz if you think about it too much you won't be able to do it.

My thoughts exactly. I plan to go impulsively with a plan.

 

[wordsonscreen]

My thoughts exactly. I plan to go impulsively with a plan.

yes yes yes. I have a list and then I will be ready to go when the impulse strikes.

The Rockies

I'll be Louise lol ;)

hehe yay!! works :) I will bake us nice treats. Whatever is our favorite.

 

[Buttercup2.0]

Everyone on this site says not to ctb on impulse, plan everything out. But I'm starting to think that you won't be able to do it unless it's on an impulse cuz if you think about it too much you won't be able to do it.

I think it's more like don't impulse on a not so promising method. Impulse on SN you are "fine". It's gonna take them a long time to recover from the horrific fail especially if it lands them as a veggie. But yes, I do agree with your response as well.

 

[wanttodie]

Yes, and I want to use hanging

 

[DetachedDreamer97]

I'm not sure when, though I often feel tempted to do it very soon and would if I'm not so torn with guilt of hurting people I care about.

My method will either be yew poisoning or cerberin poisoning (as a cocktail).

 

[phlox]

New member here (but been lurking as a guest for a while). Likely sometime soon with SN. I've partially planned but feel like an impulse is what will actually push me to go. I felt close a few weeks ago but didn't have SN then.

 

[alpacasuitcase]

I'll be drinking SN using the stat dose from Stan's guide at some point tomorrow!

 

[setomikey]

What situation are you in and what can't you take? What's going to happen on Monday? You said you don't want to do it so much, but you don't have to.

Well, in a nutshell, I have very serious money problems.. And on Monday I would have to pay a lot to some people, and I don't have any money. Maybe I could stall for one ore two more days, but what's thr point? Two days later I won't have it eighter.
I am in an impossible situation and I just can't take it anymore...

 

[mini_weeny]

Well, in a nutshell, I have very serious money problems.. And on Monday I would have to pay a lot to some people, and I don't have any money. Maybe I could stall for one ore two more days, but what's thr point? Two days later I won't have it eighter.
I am in an impossible situation and I just can't take it anymore...

What's the worst that can happen if you don't pay these people?

 

[setomikey]

What's the worst that can happen if you don't pay these people?

All hell breaks loose basically.. One thing that I have to pay, is my rent and some bills, so that is obvious.
My GF will leave.
I may get beaten up by someone who I have to pay on Monday. I know him, and I owe him a considerable amount, and I am already late with the debt, and if I dont pay, the interest will rise again, but the thing is that I can't pay him now, and will not be able to pay him next week eighter (if he would give me another week) because I am broke af..and I know that he will do everything he can to undermine me and f*** me however he can...
The thing is that I am in an impossible position, because I have to pay a lot of money tomorrow, and I don't have it, and I have absolutely no way of geting it anyway any time soon...
And besides all of this, I am literally drowning in debts anyway...

 

[mini_weeny]

All hell breaks loose basically.. One thing that I have to pay, is my rent and some bills, so that is obvious.
My GF will leave.
I may get beaten up by someone who I have to pay on Monday. I know him, and I owe him a considerable amount, and I am already late with the debt, and if I dont pay, the interest will rise again, but the thing is that I can't pay him now, and will not be able to pay him next week eighter (if he would give me another week) because I am broke af..and I know that he will do everything he can to undermine me and f*** me however he can...
The thing is that I am in an impossible position, because I have to pay a lot of money tomorrow, and I don't have it, and I have absolutely no way of geting it anyway any time soon...
And besides all of this, I am literally drowning in debts anyway...

Ohh shit friend so sad to hear, we are here for so many reasons and financial issues is one of them for sure I wish you lots of luck :(

 

[lost_soul83]

All hell breaks loose basically.. One thing that I have to pay, is my rent and some bills, so that is obvious.
My GF will leave.
I may get beaten up by someone who I have to pay on Monday. I know him, and I owe him a considerable amount, and I am already late with the debt, and if I dont pay, the interest will rise again, but the thing is that I can't pay him now, and will not be able to pay him next week eighter (if he would give me another week) because I am broke af..and I know that he will do everything he can to undermine me and f*** me however he can...
The thing is that I am in an impossible position, because I have to pay a lot of money tomorrow, and I don't have it, and I have absolutely no way of geting it anyway any time soon...
And besides all of this, I am literally drowning in debts anyway...

How did you end up owing this person such a large amount of money if you knew you couldn't pay him back in the first place?

 

[setomikey]

How did you end up owing this person such a large amount of money if you knew you couldn't pay him back in the first place?

It is not that simple...I made some bad decisions in the past...and at some point I ended up taking one loan, to pay another..and always with huge interest, of course.
This particular loan from this person, I took because I had to pay something else, more urgent.
I did thinks like this, because there was no real, long-term solution to a certain problem, so I took any short term solution, just to `survive` a little longer...
And right now, he is not my only problem anyway

 

[D11FER]

I plan to ctb on the 21st Feb exactly a year after my wife kicked me out of my home. Rightly so as I'm a cheating arsehole but I can't live with the guilt and deep remorse.
I have SN but no anti sickness tablets but I'm positive I'll be fine.

 

[Cat5050]

Well, in a nutshell, I have very serious money problems.. And on Monday I would have to pay a lot to some people, and I don't have any money. Maybe I could stall for one ore two more days, but what's thr point? Two days later I won't have it eighter.
I am in an impossible situation and I just can't take it anymore...

What happens if you don't pay the money? You could maybe hide

 

[setomikey]

What happens if you don't pay the money? You could maybe hide

The thing is, that there is nothing I can do that would solve the problems..I could stall maybe a little bit, win a couple of more days, yes, but that would still not solve anything..I don't have the money now and will not have it later either.
And these are not even my only debts. I owe a lot, to banks as well (well not really banks..there are some kind of companies, I don't know what they are called in English, I don't even know if they exist in other countries too, but the point is that, they are not banks, but they work similar to banks, like, they hand out loans, but with exorbitant interest rates) and I am not able to pay those either..I literally would be paying them for the most of the rest of my life (one of those companies just gave my debt to an executor company -not sure if this is what it is called in English tho- and just the executor's fee -which I would have to pay, obviously- is almost 400 Euros..like just the fee)
I really feel like I am Hitler, in 1945, in Berlin...with all fronts closing in, losing everywhere and with no way out and no hope... (I am a WW2 enthusiast, and I often make references/comparations to WW2 stuff, I hope that it doesn't bother anyone)

 

[Moviement]

The thing is, that there is nothing I can do that would solve the problems..I could stall maybe a little bit, win a couple of more days, yes, but that would still not solve anything..I don't have the money now and will not have it later either.
And these are not even my only debts. I owe a lot, to banks as well (well not really banks..there are some kind of companies, I don't know what they are called in English, I don't even know if they exist in other countries too, but the point is that, they are not banks, but they work similar to banks, like, they hand out loans, but with exorbitant interest rates) and I am not able to pay those either..I literally would be paying them for the most of the rest of my life (one of those companies just gave my debt to an executor company -not sure if this is what it is called in English tho- and just the executor's fee -which I would have to pay, obviously- is almost 400 Euros..like just the fee)
I really feel like I am Hitler, in 1945, in Berlin...with all fronts closing in, losing everywhere and with no way out and no hope... (I am a WW2 enthusiast, and I often make references/comparations to WW2 stuff, I hope that it doesn't bother anyone)

My english is bad now, i can't say everything, but i am forced too in situation like yours. You are not alone.

 

[sullen-girl1]

I can't stomach another year on this earth, so I'm definitely going to be doing it soon. I binned my SN in a panic over a welfare check, so I'm currently trying to source either that again or N.

 

[Cat5050]

The thing is, that there is nothing I can do that would solve the problems..I could stall maybe a little bit, win a couple of more days, yes, but that would still not solve anything..I don't have the money now and will not have it later either.
And these are not even my only debts. I owe a lot, to banks as well (well not really banks..there are some kind of companies, I don't know what they are called in English, I don't even know if they exist in other countries too, but the point is that, they are not banks, but they work similar to banks, like, they hand out loans, but with exorbitant interest rates) and I am not able to pay those either..I literally would be paying them for the most of the rest of my life (one of those companies just gave my debt to an executor company -not sure if this is what it is called in English tho- and just the executor's fee -which I would have to pay, obviously- is almost 400 Euros..like just the fee)
I really feel like I am Hitler, in 1945, in Berlin...with all fronts closing in, losing everywhere and with no way out and no hope... (I am a WW2 enthusiast, and I often make references/comparations to WW2 stuff, I hope that it doesn't bother anyone)

You could start a GoFundMe

All hell breaks loose basically.. One thing that I have to pay, is my rent and some bills, so that is obvious.
My GF will leave.
I may get beaten up by someone who I have to pay on Monday. I know him, and I owe him a considerable amount, and I am already late with the debt, and if I dont pay, the interest will rise again, but the thing is that I can't pay him now, and will not be able to pay him next week eighter (if he would give me another week) because I am broke af..and I know that he will do everything he can to undermine me and f*** me however he can...
The thing is that I am in an impossible position, because I have to pay a lot of money tomorrow, and I don't have it, and I have absolutely no way of geting it anyway any time soon...
And besides all of this, I am literally drowning in debts anyway...

All hell breaks loose basically.. One thing that I have to pay, is my rent and some bills, so that is obvious.
My GF will leave.
I may get beaten up by someone who I have to pay on Monday. I know him, and I owe him a considerable amount, and I am already late with the debt, and if I dont pay, the interest will rise again, but the thing is that I can't pay him now, and will not be able to pay him next week eighter (if he would give me another week) because I am broke af..and I know that he will do everything he can to undermine me and f*** me however he can...
The thing is that I am in an impossible position, because I have to pay a lot of money tomorrow, and I don't have it, and I have absolutely no way of geting it anyway any time soon...
And besides all of this, I am literally drowning in debts anyway...

The person who wants to beat you up, doesn't sound like a nice person. Is it possible you could run away somewhere? Or report this to the police?

 

[setomikey]

You could start a GoFundMe

Done that, no success

 

[Cat5050]

Done that, no success

Are you actually going to kill yourself?

 

[setomikey]

Are you actually going to kill yourself?

Well, I see no other solution so yes

 

[Cat5050]

Well, I see no other solution so yes

Add me on Discord, so that I can try to help you

 

[bones]

I'm hoping to be gone in the next week or so, SN is my method.

What is sn and how do you get it for sure.

 

[gothgirl1996]

I want to drown... I'm planning on going to a lake with a backpack of heavy objects and some sleeping pills. I know it's not the most reliable method, but it feels like the only one that's available to me. I'm autistic, so I suck at tying knots. I'm worried that I'll get caught or fuck something up if I try to get N or do SN.

 

[bones]

What is sn

I can't stomach another year on this earth, so I'm definitely going to be doing it soon. I binned my SN in a panic over a welfare check, so I'm currently trying to source either that again or N.

What is sn

 

[lost_soul83]

What is sn and how do you get it for sure.

What is sn

SN is sodium nitrite