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midnight.moon

Member
Nov 18, 2024
83
Like I am only 18. Too early to die but I screwed up life hahahaha. Anyone else?
 
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whitetaildeer

whitetaildeer

Wreck & Rule
Aug 5, 2024
309
you're definitely not alone! i'm 19, going on 20 in april... i'm just sorry you and anyone else around our age ended up on this site at all.
 
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MercenariesofMidgar

Specialist
Nov 30, 2024
375
Pretty young too. It fuckin sucks to be honest... I'm like a year off from being able to easily buy a gun in my state and blasting myself, I CANNOT last that long man. Just will make do with my methods available.

Hopefully it works on my first attempt. The shame and guilt from failure would be enough to jump into the ocean LOL
 
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unworthy_

Member
Mar 19, 2021
89
You all are very young and it saddened me that it has become v normal in society. I sincerely hope you all gets better..
 
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idelttoilfsadness21

I need a moment right now
Jan 6, 2025
649
Recently turned 21 and I started at 18... Sadly, welcome, I guess
 
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outofbounds

outofbounds

Member
Jan 28, 2025
23
I am a similar age, though I don't think it particularly matters when someone dies. It's all the same in the end. I don't believe in an afterlife, though.
 
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IronGuard27

Member
Jan 22, 2025
7
I'm 20, and I also want to die since I was 16 but I haven't tried to CTB, I'm so afraid to die even if I'm better dead.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
5,158
I'm 21, soon to be 22.
 
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Kibby

Kibby

Member
Jan 19, 2025
50
23. but i havent felt young since I hit 18
 
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Permanoir

Permanoir

Student
Dec 29, 2024
144
I'm the same age and started feeling like that 4 years ago
 
UnnervedCompany

UnnervedCompany

Student
Jun 21, 2024
148
Like I am only 18. Too early to die but I screwed up life hahahaha. Anyone else?
Im 18 rn, 19 in February. Would be pretty comical to not last a whole year as an adult.
 
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Anonymousa

Anonymousa

Get me Out
Sep 21, 2024
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most people here are 18 or 19 or in their 20s. I am in my early 20s.
 
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floop

floop

sadboi
Jan 29, 2025
81
i'm 23 and i'm right there with you. i tried catching my bus at 12 for the first time and have been just chasing it since. i hope no matter what happens next, you find peace
 
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bananaolympus

Specialist
Dec 12, 2024
394
Nah nearly 30 but i did started suicidal when i was 19
 
nomoredolor

nomoredolor

Specialist
Sep 7, 2024
369
2/3 people I lost to Ctb were 18. It breaks my heart. Only because I want people to be able to experience life as an independent adult outside of their parents purview before they decide to die. I feel like they're missing out and their life may improve on the other side.

However I recognize my hypocrisy as I am in my early 30s and get similar sentiments from older adults. Also I've wanted to die since I was 12 and first started attempting as a teenager. So yeah I'm a hypocrite.

Take care đź«¶
Anna
 
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before20

before20

I can't turn this thing off, it keeps following me
Jan 28, 2025
119
19 here, although I've felt this way since 11.
 
heisenberg

heisenberg

zzzzzzz
May 18, 2020
208
21 y/o but i've been suicidal since i was 13
 
knighterrant

knighterrant

Member
Dec 27, 2024
14
21, but the first thought appeared when I was 8 years old, and from about the age of 14, suicidal thoughts became a permanent element of life and this condition continues to this day, with minor breaks.
 
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Promised Heaven

Promised Heaven

Eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
744
23 and me.

Universally hated by my peers, ignored by coworkers, hidden from family. There isn't exactly a loss I can think of besides temporary grief if I CTB. I'm just meant to die. I can't imagine making it to 25, but knowing me, my SI is strong.
 
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P@in

Member
Sep 9, 2023
43
I am 28 yo, but it's already like 4 years suicidal. Since my medical condition is not the best, doctors can't help... I hope to ctb soon enough.
 
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HopeToStay

Member
May 31, 2024
95
I'm coming up on 40. I would honestly beg anyone under 30 to stick it out. Unless you have a really serious problem like a debilitating medical issue.

Life can change a lot and for the better from when you are that young. Youth can be a bit of a rat race. I was quite depressed when i was younger but some of my best years were in my early 30s when i kind of stopped caring about a lot of things and just focused and enjoyed the things i liked to do. That was right up until COVID ruined everything.
 
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kvorumese

"Wiped Out!"
Oct 21, 2024
153
I am relatively young, and my initial suicidal ideations have been sprouting for a long, long time, so yeah you are not alone here :D
 
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lonergirl_26

Student
Sep 1, 2024
147
I'm 19 and had my first attempt over a decade ago. I can't remember a time where I've not had suicidal thoughts.
 
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clementinemelocotĂłn

Member
Jun 13, 2024
7
Wanted to die since I was a child
 
SoulWhisperer

SoulWhisperer

Nothing Like The Looks « ❤️‍🩹 »
Nov 13, 2023
583
Yeah you're not alone. Only thing that growing up changed in my life are the problems coming back to bite me and me realising how ineffective I am at dealing with them.
 
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dorianb2

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Jan 23, 2025
6
It's been on my mind since I was 12 or 13. I'm still pretty young, although I never really thought I'd make it here. Feels surreal now.
 
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melonpan

Member
Sep 9, 2024
69
Yeah, same, turning 19 in only a week now. I'm still alive, can't believe I made it this far and I regret having lived to here
 
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Arin

Member
Jan 12, 2025
36
Also barely 18. I'm too fucked up to recover. The so-called mental health "professionals" whose sole aim was to help me ended up giving up on me because I'm THAT much of a lost cause. There is no hope left, and I've just been left trailing along being dragged forward by time involuntarily, barely alive as it is, just waiting for the right moment to CTB. I don't want to disappoint my family but I'm a seriously terrible, fucked up person and they're better off with me dead. I'm just a burden on them now. Any real attempt at "recovering" would kill what little love they have for me now. They're better off with me dead, and I'm better off killing myself than trying to get better because it's a lost fucking cause. It doesn't even matter that I'm only 18, we can be fucked up irreversibly at any age. I think I was long gone when I was only 15 or 16, although the downward trajectory had begun way before that, probably when I was 11 and had my first suicide attempt.
 
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divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
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18 is a very hard age. Mid 20s were better. Hopefully you guys can hold on
 
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green eyes

Member
Feb 18, 2024
14
I am 20 years old and I will be 21 in July, I haven't even finished my studies yet, they told me that it was best for me to leave for my mental health due to suicidal thoughts and more. I would love to finish my studies but I prefer to first try to get a job even if it gives me enough money to rent any place, even if it is small, I just want to leave my home, I hate people who are so egocentric and evil at times here, and they also refuse to be clean because of it I walk I have a phobia of dirt but only in my home and whenever I touch anything outside my room it makes me horrendously nervous, sometimes I get quite desperate or short of breath. It makes me quite sad that people even younger than me have these thoughts, I really hope they can improve :< (I speak Spanish and use a translator, sorry if some parts are not understood)
 
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