Discussion Is anyone else delaying their plans to ctb for a few years?

[5er50ji]

I'm delaying my plans for a few reasons, mostly financial. I wanna pay off a few contracts like my phone and laptop which I stupidly took out a contract for and dental treatment debt before I ctb. I want to make sure I've broken up with my bf and he's in a place on his own and financially stable without me. I want to save up lots of money so my parents don't put themselves into debt for cremation and funeral stuff. I need to shred years worth of embarrassing journal entries. I think this will all take a few years since I work a pretty low paying job.

I have fleeting hopeful thoughts sometimes, thinking 'what if I recover from my depression' by the time I've sorted this stuff but honestly I doubt it. I've been depressed since I was 14 and I'm 27 now. I've fucked up so many aspects of my life. I let depression take over my life, lost friends, did bad at school. I'm barely hanging on but I know I need to plan before I act on anything

 

[friedplantain]

I'm also delaying my plans for similar reasons. I need to pay off my credit cards and the save enough money for cremation so that i dont put a financial burden on my family after im gone. I also want to do somethings on my bucket list before i ctb. I'm hoping i can do all of this withing a couple of years

 

[ScaredCutter]

probably. my instincts are very strong and i have a lot of things that i want to look forward to. i want be able to live a new life with my bf and see what i can do to live better and be functioning. i still have things i want to find out and learn too. im also pretty afraid of what happens after death as well lol.

 

[SASU-KE]

I am waiting to die only after my mother passes. Mainly because I don't want to put her through the pain of losing her child.Could be a long time.