Introduce yourself

[glass-petal]

I thought I might as well do one of these for the heck of it. I'm a 23 year old woman from the maple country who's been an on-and-off lurker here for a good while. rapid fire interests goes as follows: silly cats, asoiaf, comics, video games, and horses. I don't do a lot these days so I'm probably a fair bit on the boring side to most. I've dealt with medical issues since I was young, It's slowly but surely pushed me further into my own isolation. after getting a lot sicker recently I truly resigned myself to my hermit level of existence. I've spent so long alone that it is undoubtedly my element, and I can at least find a degree of normalcy and comfort in that

 

[Smiles & Giggles]

I'm a nihilist with promortalist and anarchoprimtivist beliefs. I have been an antinatalist since I was at least 14. I see life as objectively of neutral value and subjectively of negative value. My perfect universe is a universe in which there is nothing alive. Ignorance is bliss and death is the ultimate ignorance.

 

[allidoiswish]

Hey guys,

Noticed a lot of threads pop up with new members saying hey. To reduce clutter we have decided to make a welcome thread for everyone new to introduce themselves and for people to welcome them, basically merging all future welcome posts into this one.

With that said, welcome to Sanctioned Suicide, we're a pro-choice forum; make sure to read the rules and check the resource sticky out too!

Post your introductions here!

Hey yall!!

I'm really happy to finally be here and officially join the forum. I've actually been lurking for a few weeks now, and one thing that stood out to me right away is how nice and respectful everyone seems so it made me even more excited to sign up!!!

Since I'm new, I just want to say in advance that if I ever mess something up or accidentally break a rule, I'd really appreciate it if someone lets me know. I've read through the rules already, but I know it can still happen sometimes when you're getting used to a new place.

Looking forward to being part of the community and getting to know you all!

 

[DoomsdayCTB]

Hello. 30-something being. Am happy to have decided to CTB maybe after the movie 2026 Dune or Doomsday. I've been fighting the feeling since I was a 9 years old. I'm a bit clinically insane, have broken heart syndrome, but also had a horrible experience with narc abuse and I'm sick of being a bullying target. Relieved to be around people to calmly pass on. I'm sorry we're all here.

 

[6486159051]

Hi. I am supreme biological trash. I was thoughtlessly fucked into existence and ejected from my mother like excrement. I have a disability that people pity. When I tell them about my disability, they privately thank god that it didn't happen to them. I am currently working on a PhD that I hate.

My supervisor is probably noticing my dwindling output... so maybe I should kill myself before my next meeting/interrogation. I'm a defeatist loser, I suppose. I did try really hard for a decade or two though. I really did.

I had a lovely hour-long swim in the pool tonight.

 

[echoINTHEMIRROR]

Hi. We are many and might go by different names, but for now Kesantemume works. Only use it/its on us, please. We are a system who's known it since we were young (though, we didn't use that word. because we didn't know it.)
Besides being suicidal due to NPD, autism, adhd, RA, scoliosis, etc. etc. etc. we enjoy tomodachi life (living the dream and the original, we have also played a bit of tomodachi collection), cookie run:ovenbreak, toki pona, object shows, minecraft, listening to music, coding, and drawing. We're also getting into chess and 5d chess.
We're trying to survive at least enough to get a job in computer science but it's quickly falling short. We also are trying to write a comic.
Btw, if you demonize NPD or DID we will just ignore you. We're tired enough, okay?

I hope everything goes well for you today. mi olin e sina.

 

[The Eternal One]

Hello. I'm a really bad artist, a chronically suicidal person and a very tired soul.
I just want to go Home.

 

[FuneralFogeist]

Hey everyone.
Currently in my early 20's incredibly isolated and struggling to find a purpose. My life circumstances have been pretty fucked since birth so unfortunately I've stumbled here. Dealt with depression for a majority of my life and continue to deal with past trauma. I enjoy hiking, nature, reading, listening to music, and infrequently play guitar. Hoping to finally get that kick in the ass to CTB after a few of my previous pathetic attempts. While I never thought I'd come to a forum with subjects as dark as this, it is nice seeing people share their interests, hobbies, aspirations, etc outside of CTB. I hope everyone here finds a reason to keep going. Stay safe everyone.

 

[Imausername]

Heya,
Not sure what to say.
Age 26
Location uk
Sex f
I'm here because life got hard what a surprise I'm sure none of you can relate lol
last 9 months have been hell in and out of hospital, family Dr, phycologist, community support. Nothing will help my situation I'm just waiting for good or bad news to make the jump or not to. Ever since this started I've been a shell of my past self not doing anything but sleeping. I just want some UK friends who can help me with methods that actually work.

Also when and how do I get enough rep to unlock dms.

 

[SASU-KE]

Also when and how do I get enough rep to unlock dms.

It's already unlocked for you. Click on someone's username and use the Start Conversation feature.

 

[Imausername]

I only see this and there's no start convo. I'm in my phone BTW


Oops! We ran into some problems. This member limits who may view their full profile.

 

[SASU-KE]

I only see this and there's no start convo. I'm in my phone BTW


Oops! We ran into some problems. This member limits who may view their full profile.

Don't click on my username. If you click on other usernames you will be able to see the start conversation feature.

It's showing for you as well.

 

[Imausername]

Don't click on my username. If you click on other usernames you will be able to see the start conversation feature.

It's showing for you as well.View attachment 200759

I only see the follow and ignore buttons there's no start chat. But I do see the messages and rep score. Someone said I just need to post more?

 

[SASU-KE]

I only see the follow and ignore buttons there's no start chat. But I do see the messages and rep score. Someone said I just need to post more?

Interesting. So others can message you, but you can't message others...I thought both unlocked at the same time.

 

[Imausername]

Interesting. So others can message you, but you can't message others...I thought both unlocked at the same time.

Ah so some users I see it others I don't. Mostly it's users above 10 rep I can message but I can't message you I assume you have it turned off

 

[Gomer]

Hey guys,

Noticed a lot of threads pop up with new members saying hey. To reduce clutter we have decided to make a welcome thread for everyone new to introduce themselves and for people to welcome them, basically merging all future welcome posts into this one.

With that said, welcome to Sanctioned Suicide, we're a pro-choice forum; make sure to read the rules and check the resource sticky out too!

Post your introductions here!

k. so I tried to post and intro for my account, but the intro disappeared. There's so mention in the rules about HOW this site works. Do you just pat ppl on the back for attaching medical articles. idk. How are you meant to find info you're looking for. It's chaos. There's nothing about how to navigate this site. I'm not here to whinge about "oh woe is me", I want supply

 

[The Eternal One]

k. so I tried to post and intro for my account, but the intro disappeared. There's so mention in the rules about HOW this site works. Do you just pat ppl on the back for attaching medical articles. idk. How are you meant to find info you're looking for. It's chaos. There's nothing about how to navigate this site. I'm not here to whinge about "oh woe is me", I want supply

New user here, as well. I'll tell you how I navigated it the first day. Hope it helps!

The search bar hasn't appeared for me for awhile. I think I needed 5 posts for it to finally unlock. When it does, it appears in the top right corner next to "What's new" section, marked by a lightning.
Before that I used Google for searching specific topics and keywords on this site. You do this by typing:

site:sanctioned-suicide.net "insert topic you're interested in"

For example, if you already have a preferred method in mind you can search like this:

site:sanctioned-suicide.net "gun"

That usually proved to be enough for me. The key is to allow yourself to rabbithole yourself into different topics. It's kinda similar to opening an article on Wikipedia and jumping from topic to topic, while doing your research or merely following your curiosity.
However, users of this site are very helpful and thorough with their research, so I believe it won't be necessary. I rediscovered and re-adjusted methods I was interested in with 2 or 3 Google searches. Each thread ended up containing very detailed explanations in the very first few posts.

 

[badtoad12314]

Hello.
Im badtoad12314. I am 23, am male, and live in the US. Im here because well heard about this website in passing and well things havent been going so well as of late. There have been some major changes in my life and it has left me with well no one to really vent to so why not a bunch of strangers on the internet maybe theyll get some solace, some entertainment, something?

 

[synthsong]

Hi. I normally would not talk about myself much but this is "introduce yourself". I'm a 30yo man and new here. I'm a chronic severe pain sufferer who tries to pass each day distracting myself with music, video games, social time with a loved one. I like to make music in my free time, but it's getting increasingly hard because of my condition. I'm not super good at being active online but I'm hoping to talk to some great people here.

 

[ZwartHartje]

Hi everyone, I'm a female athlete living in Europe in a country whose language I don't know, originally from NJ. I love this world - minus humanity, the one invasive species that is wrecking it.
I love the rest of the world - Nature, wild animals, and in particular nutrias! Spoiler: nearly all of my nutrias got murdered, by "humans".

I stumbled upon this forum by chance lately, via a Dutch article mentioning sodium nitrate, I had never heard of that and looked it up, and the Wikipedia article mentioned this forum. I first was really scared to disable my VPN to join, because I've never gone online without it in the better part of a decade - and then to go to such a "controversial" site! But I've wished for years now that a place like this existed, never expected it really might, since this topic must not be mentioned anywhere... which is insane, in my book. There are 8 billion humans overpopulating this planet, and all of them MUST be forced to go on living as long as possible, even against their will??

It's always been my opinion that the only person who owns your life is YOU, and you're the only person with the right to decide what to do with it, including ending it. It should be a basic human right, in my opinion. It should never be automatically associated with mental illness, as there are very good and rational reasons for the wish to end it.

I wrote a lot more on my profile, check it out if interested. Great to be here and to be able to talk about what must never be mentioned elsewhere!

 

[NoPoint2Life]

Hi everyone, I'm a female athlete living in Europe in a country whose language I don't know, originally from NJ. I love this world - minus humanity, the one invasive species that is wrecking it.
I love the rest of the world - Nature, wild animals, and in particular nutrias! Spoiler: nearly all of my nutrias got murdered, by "humans".

I stumbled upon this forum by chance lately, via a Dutch article mentioning sodium nitrate, I had never heard of that and looked it up, and the Wikipedia article mentioned this forum. I first was really scared to disable my VPN to join, because I've never gone online without it in the better part of a decade - and then to go to such a "controversial" site! But I've wished for years now that a place like this existed, never expected it really might, since this topic must not be mentioned anywhere... which is insane, in my book. There are 8 billion humans overpopulating this planet, and all of them MUST be forced to go on living as long as possible, even against their will??

It's always been my opinion that the only person who owns your life is YOU, and you're the only person with the right to decide what to do with it, including ending it. It should be a basic human right, in my opinion. It should never be automatically associated with mental illness, as there are very good and rational reasons for the wish to end it.

I wrote a lot more on my profile, check it out if interested. Great to be here and to be able to talk about what must never be mentioned elsewhere!

Just a heads up that your profile is not visible. you have to fix it in settings, but I think there are rules for how long it takes until a new user is able to unlock it.

Welcome, but sorry you are here also

 

[ZwartHartje]

Just a heads up that your profile is not visible. you have to fix it in settings, but I think there are rules for how long it takes until a new user is able to unlock it.

Welcome, but sorry you are here also

Thank you for the welcome and the heads up, I fixed it now! But there's another setting to "view your identities" - I'm a bit mystified, what's that? I have only one identity...

 

[exhaustedmillennial]

Hello

New here. And tired. So so tired. Tired of being tired. Just. Tired.

Am I allowed to not want to be tired anymore? Why does that make me a bad person? Not wanting to suffer anymore?

 

[troubled_puppet]

I'm kind of nervous to make my first post, but I wanted to say hi.

Currently in therapy, took forever to find somebody who listens. Currently afraid to take my first SSRI (not sure if it will make my ideations worse or if it will make me impulsive). Struggling to come to terms with neurodivergent diagnosis.

I'm only still alive because I have family that need me. Everyone else who cared about me have passed on due to old age already.

Isolating a lot, unsure how to find connections again. Various creative irl hobbies and digital hobbies. Writing fanfics, tarot cards for self reflection, origami, trying 3d modeling, etc. I got back into acrylic and water color painting. Crochet and knitting off and on.

I've been lurking on and off for now. I'm still getting the gist of things, please forgive me if I make mistakes.

 

[dandelion_fluff]

Hello, I am a huge loser and probably will stay like that always. I am 22 years old now (birthday is today). I have no friends, don't leave my house except for college or for the rare trip outside with family, and I don't have much life experience at all because I've been sheltered my whole life and am very socially anxious. I suck at most things, but I do enjoy watching anime and reading manhwa. My favorite types of anime are shonen, and here they are: Demon Slayer, JJBA, MHA, Inuyasha, Hunter x hunter, and FMAB. My favorite anime is Inuyasha, one of the first anime I watched. I also quite like magical girl anime, as that's what I mainly watched when I was a little girl discovering anime: Princess Tutu (my first anime ever, what a start!), My Mermaid Melody, Shugo Chara, Tokyo Mew Mew, Sugar sugar rune. I also like fanfiction a lot and roleplaying. As for manhwa, I like Lookism, Viral Hit, a lot of villainess regression manhwa like Kill The Villainess, and Plaything. As for TV shows, I like Yellowjackets, Hazbin Hotel (idc if it's considered cringe), Supernatural, The Sopranos, Squid Games, and I'm starting The Boys. If anybody shares the same interests pleaaase talk to me, I am desperate for friends.

 

[azsxls]

Hello

 

[extremelyugly]

Hi. I'm extremely ugly, which is why I'm here, and there is no way I can stop being such. I have no money to fix it, I have no time anymore, I'm almost 30, and I don't even think even with all the money in the world I would actually stop being ugly, or maybe I would, but I don't have it so .

I'm also a loser, I never had a relationship with any girl whatsoever, and I've been called ugly, horrible, "omg what is that", "a horror", having a rapist/pedo face, and what not (this almost never to my face directly, but I'm not an idiot).

Anyway, apart from that, have no job (and no motivation to find it sadly). I was always very sheltered and still am, embarrasingly enough. I'm a manchild technically and mentally as well, since I didn't grow up socially because everyone rejected me, even men for being a loser (they never took me seriously). On top of that, and I almost forgot, I am XXY (Klinefelter), and obviously I have no money for treatment, and if I had, I'd have to also use products for hair loss (because of the extra T).

So... I'm very ugly. Yeah. Oh, my hobbies? Gone. No interest in anything, even eating! I cared about Resident Evil, and still do, but... one videogame franchise of all things is not going to keep me around.

So why should I continue? Pfft.

 

[Maki9]

Hello everyone,

I'm Maki, 18 years old.

Currently dealing with parasomnia and psychosis, will be in therapy soon.

I will be happy to chat with you guys, thanks for reading

Have a good weekend, everyone

 

[Yknot]

I almost feel imposter on this site. I'm in a pretty bad place at the moment, but I can't help but feeling sorry for you all. My son ctb'd last January - two weeks after a good friend did the same. They met last year on this site and happened to live only 30km from each other. He was my mini-me and my continuous worry. It feels like my life lost its purpose which is strange because I have a loving wife and two other boys. It is dark and lonely. I miss him and I feel like a failure.