Introduce yourself

[No surprises]

Hello everyone, I'm an 18-year-old girl from China. I want to commit suicide because of a severe decline in my memory and language abilities for unknown reasons. If you have the similar problem, please feel free to reach out to me. We might not be able to communicate as smoothly as normal people, but we are in the same situation and share a common understanding, which I think is great.
Other than that, I like listening to Radiohead, Grimes, and Iyowa. I used to love watching movies, writing, and reading, but I haven't written or read in a long time now because I feel unworthy. The only thing that makes me happy is watching movies. My favorite movie is Fight Club, and my favorite book is "Stories of Your Life and Others."

 

[aego]

hello everyone! I am Ego. I mostly lurk/reply to threads so you probably won't see me in the wild.
I'm 19 this year, so im probably one of the youngest members. despite my typing habits, i swear i'm not a troll and actually do take this site seriously.

im here bc ive genuinely been depressed since I was 10 (hereditary and environmental). I decided to force myself to wait until I was 18 to see if everything would actually get better, and it never did. i am not an ambitious person, nor am i particularly talented at anything besides being nice. i've trying my whole life to fit in and work hard, just to be mediocre and having to watch everyone else drift past me. being anxious/emotionally numbed and unable to focus basically just ruined my social/academic life @_@

I made an account because america is actually trash at supporting neurodivergencies/mental illnesses... there is basically no open resources available to committing safely (if it weren't for SaSu i probably would've foolishly tried overdosing on pain meds and permanently screwing myself), so seeing the huge threads on how to safely ctb AND have a normal place to talk abt it was so nice. everyone here is so sweet, so i hope i meet some new friends.

 

[blush]

hi everyone,

i'm an 18yo trans girl located in north america. i'm on this forum bc dysphoria and mental health issues r debilitating and very few people understand me (feels like i am an alien). so i wanna talk to ppl who might understand mental health from their own experiences. cool to meet you!

 

[luchayamor]

Hi! I've been following the site for a while, but only now have I decided to create an account. I'm going through a serious crisis and I need to vent. I feel so stupid.
I'm nothing.
I don't know anything, I don't make a difference in the world.
Nobody likes me because I'm boring, detestable, without qualities. UGLY.
I'm anxious, I talk too much, my hair is falling out.
I need to do better in college, take courses and go to lectures.
I need to keep my report card with high grades, I need to read and take notes on everything. I need to dress well, take care of myself, have my bangs done.
But I don't know how to do any of that, I just fail.
I'm tired. I just cry. Incompetent.
I try and fail and I get rejected.
I haven't been able to make friends or have a committed partner by my side. I've been rejected by many boys, I've gone through anorexia, and now I've been dealing with depression for years.
Even my cat doesn't want me anymore; he stopped coming into my room because I'm so detestable.
I'd rather just die.
I don't go to the gym, I have no personality, no hobbies, I am NOTHING. I still watch the news about the world and I'm completely desolate.

 

[aego]

hi everyone,

i'm an 18yo trans girl located in north america. i'm on this forum bc dysphoria and mental health issues r debilitating and very few people understand me (feels like i am an alien). so i wanna talk to ppl who might understand mental health from their own experiences. cool to meet you!

hiii! i'm also from NA and yeah— once i got out of highschool i realized there's actually like 0 other trans people around me

 

[ACorpseHeldUp]

Hi. I'm ACorpseHeldUp, I'm a man in my mid 30's in the Netherlands. My health has been getting worse the past years, but on top of that I'm now suffering from an illness (mold illness/sensitivity) that isn't acknowledged in my country, resulting in mental health institutions labeling me as delusional and trying to help me in ways that make me worse. It's getting worse and the path to getting better is very uncertain so I hope I can find a way to end it all soon in case I can't get better. Unfortunately I don't have high hopes...

 

[K14~♡]

Hi! I'm a 1st yr accountancy student from the Philippines and I rlly wanna escape this course and my uni...(Family pressured me to pick this) I wonder if there's any Pipinos here?
I'm in this site cuz I was searching on methods, and wanted a place where I can freely talk about suicide. I felt happy when I discovered this site btw! It felt like I finally found where I belonged haha

Not sure what else to mention about myself, but I wanna say that I love Where Winds Meet (a chinese mmorpg) and Sleep Token

 

[sadpeaceful_snorlax]

Hello! Not really sure what to share
I like Pokemon, I like making people laugh, and toasted sandwiches are sooo good (the broiler is such an amazing invention!) I've dealt with depression and suicidal for a good while, I was learning good tools to deal with them and felt better than I had felt in a long time, but I'm back to a really low point, which felt oddly comforting to a certain degree, and don't feel like getting better again
:) thank you for reading