Introduce yourself

[TheNatureOfDying]

hi everyone.
i'm a 19 year old lesbian who is very depressed. i have thought about committing suicide many times over the years, but have never made a full plan to do so. i used to enjoy playing video games and watching anime, but now that i'm in university i find it hard to make time to do those things. music has always been a place of comfort to me no matter how i'm feeling.

thank u

 

[cctrjj]

Hi everyone! I'm 20 years old and I'm trying my best to carry on. I love my family, I love what life can be when I'm not so stuck on comparing myself to others and wishing I was neurotypical. But when I don't do that, I'm enjoying life for what it is and being grateful. The only reason I am here is because I'm suffering with mental illnesses that keep dragging me back down and I can appreciate how raw and real everyone is on this site. I don't like to be negative person and let negative thoughts overcome me, but sometimes you have to learn when to quit. I am doing this all for my family right now, shout out to them and shout out to me for being forgiving, lmao. JJ out!

 

[WeepingDragon]

Hi,
I'm an italian transgender guy in my twenties, and I'm here mostly to see if I can find a bit of solace in knowing I'm not the only one considering such an extreme action as suicide. Despite trying, and actually managing to appreciate life, I still can't find even the tiniest crumb of will to live. I just... don't want it. I mostly kept myself safe to not hurt others, but if it happens that I choose death, I'd want to be able to feel understood. And vent a bit, haha, dying is scary.
Whatever I end up deciding though, given the occasion, I'd also want to sometimes share some random trivia about space, mushrooms, music, animal caretaking, whatever! I can be a little weird alien sometimes

After almost a year since registration I'm finally writing a presentation lol, I'm an anxious mess haha

 

[Proxar]

Hi, im from Chile, in my 20s (South America), who has been sad and feeling lonely since i can remember. This years has been a very rough ones but i keep going becouse i love so much my family, but that doesnt mean i like to live, i hardly find anything that keep me going, i dont have anyone to talk about this feelings and makes me so anxious some days. I dont fear death, i dont have any problems, and the few times i tried, i almost do it, every single time, but the memories of my family always come out and stop me right there. I love playing games, watching animes, and series overall, i also love weed, but from recent illnesses i cant even do that anymore. I feel comfortable to find people who talk about this and dont make it into a weird taboo, that no one wants to talk about. Good luck yall, stay strong.

 

[diseasedPOS]

I am a diseased piece of shit, and I'm here to say: I am going to fucking kill myself. Thanks for allowing the indulgence. That feels great.

I exist in a 30-something year old body. The finality of this outcome is kind of crazy, given I've spent most of my life as a people pleasing over-achiever. Yet, the depth of my self-hate grows daily, as do the duration and intensity of my spiraling episodes.

On the outside, all looks well, except for moments when it becomes obvious in moments of weakness or authenticity that I am massively depressed and faking my way thru virtually every interaction I have. It's remarkable and slightly hilarious that I've fooled everyone for this long. I am doing "better" by worldly metrics than many I know (see above, over-achiever), but being the recipient of one single, good 'ol fashioned involuntary, drug-induced, Diddy-style rape was the nail that started closing my coffin early. I won the lottery (!!), unfortunately just not the one that gives you money. It's a pretty cool cherry on top of childhood molestation. I am the belle of someone's mutant zombie ball.

Anyhow, guess let's see how taking the filter off goes around you good folks.

And if anyone knows how I can secure myself a spot in the Sarco, please, please do let me know?