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simplesimon93
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- Oct 12, 2024
- 17
I am ready to CTB, need work work out which exact method is best tbh, but I've 4 options really well planned, more on that later.
The one thing that is really making me upset is the thoughts of not seeing my kids grow up. They are so far the only reason I'm here this long but things have just become so bad I can't deal with this situation anymore. I'm on meds, done the therapy, seen my doctor many times and none of it works.
I don't want my kids to have to deal with this but I honestly can't live any more. The impact will be great on my family too I assume and my parents are really great but outside of family, I've nothing left. My health is going, my heart is damaged and mentally I'm drained.
Does anyone know how to deal with this guilt?
The one thing that is really making me upset is the thoughts of not seeing my kids grow up. They are so far the only reason I'm here this long but things have just become so bad I can't deal with this situation anymore. I'm on meds, done the therapy, seen my doctor many times and none of it works.
I don't want my kids to have to deal with this but I honestly can't live any more. The impact will be great on my family too I assume and my parents are really great but outside of family, I've nothing left. My health is going, my heart is damaged and mentally I'm drained.
Does anyone know how to deal with this guilt?