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MiMif

MiMif

I do not live for others to understand me...
Sep 13, 2023
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I'm an American and I saw two incidents happen today. One with a man named Charlie Kirk who was shot and another with a young woman who was stabbed on a train. I watched the videos for both of these at least ten times and I felt so jealous and sad for these people. Jealous because I wished it was me and sad because well they probably didn't wish to die. I kept imagining myself being shot in the neck blood pouring and my body going limped and somebody popping behind me and stabbing me randomly and I felt jealous....

My date is coming up and I'm planning on jumping tho Im not very confident in this method and might try overdosing on Benadryl. Its so sad how death never seems to come to those who truly wish for it but always for those who don't
I also can't get a gun as I've been to a mental hospital before and they don't allow you to purchase one. My parents have a gun but I can't find it
 
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