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love_peep

love_peep

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May 26, 2023
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I don't know what to do, not long ago I wrote a farewell post and said goodbye to everyone right now, I decided to pull myself together, but I can't stand this pain, I'm so tired of this depression, I can't do anything but eat, listen to music and sleep. I want to live like all other people calmly and without any thoughts in my head, but I'm so confused in myself that I don't know what to do. someone explain to me why to continue living if I can't do shit and I have a bunch of loans and other debts. I love this world, but I won't hurt myself for my weakness and my indifference, I don't care about everything and I don't know what to do with it for the last couple of months I've been living like one day all day sitting on the forum listening to music and crying. I'm sorry that I lied about leaving this earth, I need time and money to think about it, but there is no money and I can't work in short, a vicious circle thanks to everyone who read the post and continues to support me
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,250
You don't need to apologise, it's a personal decision deciding when to leave. But anyway best wishes.
 
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love_peep

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May 26, 2023
313
You don't need to apologise, it's a personal decision deciding when to leave. But anyway best wishes.
I just chickened out to do it, I don't know now how to respect myself now since I don't even have the willpower to do this
 
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MrDarkness

MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
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It's clearly not your time, enjoy what you can enjoy, go outside, smell a flower, enjoy what little things you can before you pass
 
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stage4johnny

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Jun 22, 2023
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Yes,think it over. Do what's best for you. I identify with you to a great extent!😮
 
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love_peep

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May 26, 2023
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It's clearly not your time, enjoy what you can enjoy, go outside, smell a flower, enjoy what little things you can before you pass
I don't know, I see the world as gray because of this apathy and depression today, even in a dream, apathy manifested itself
I have a feeling that my brain is about to explode
 
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TDF

TDF

Meh might as well die
Jun 24, 2023
475
Please don't feel like you have to apologise or that you have let anyone down or yourself down. A part of you clearly felt you were not ready yet and that's great. Don't feel bad about it, there are already many things you feel bad about, don't add to it. Think it over and do what's best for you.

I'm sorry you feel like your brain is about to explode, I feel the same.
 
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MrDarkness

Left sasu, to improve my life
Jun 18, 2023
1,066
I don't know, I see the world as gray because of this apathy and depression today, even in a dream, apathy manifested itself
I have a feeling that my brain is about to explode
I feel the same, I'm planning on ctbing soon, but I'll try to enjoy the little time I have left
 
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