Discussion I’m thinking of throwing myself a send off party

[nomoredolor]

I'm tempted to throw a send off party (not too many people) where I tell everyone how much I love them and spend some final time with them. I would be saying goodbye, they just wouldn't know it. To avoid suspicion I might make future plans (that I don't intend to keep) with some of the guests. It would probably be overwhelming and overstimulating for me but at least I could bid them all adieu.

I wish that I could have a real send off party where my guests knew we were saying goodbye. Like if I had access to MAID.

All my love to all of you!
Anna

 

[ctb2soble]

I think this could be a good idea as long as no one knows about your suicidal ideation. At least everyone will have one last good memory with you and feel like they got to say their final goodbyes.

 

[Hecubaa]

If I ended up deciding to CTB, I'd want to do the same thing. I do have a lot of people in my life I value and it would mean a lot to see them one last time. Even some people I am no longer in contact with/people who hurt me too much in spite of having had a good friendship in the past. Just be careful about them realizing what's going on. While I think proper support can actually help someone recover, most people will likely get you to psych ward and that is nothing but traumatic.

 

[folly_]

honestly sounds like something id want to do, now. friends might be a little suspicious since ive never been one to host parties really but i could probably pass it off as just wanting to spend some time together. a way to say goodbye without making it too obvious