I’m terrified

[Lambybahhhhhh]

I have the sn cups ready, all I need to do is drink. I wonder how the other people who caught the bus using this method felt.

 

[DTA]

Wish I could say. May your journey be peaceful.

 

[inpainnosleep]

If you aren't sure, maybe it's a sign to put it off.

 

[Aknu132]

If you are able to drink, I wish you all the best and hope you find peace. If you are not able to, then that's okay. it doesn't always have to be now. I hope for the best in whatever decision you make.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

I have the sn cups ready, all I need to do is drink. I wonder how the other people who caught the bus using this method felt.

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/video-of-man-dying-by-sn.242458/

Like this

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/video-of-man-dying-by-sn.242458/

Like this

XD

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

XD

Guy looks cute dont he?

I couldnt watch past 4:44

 

[Praestat_Mori]

If you're not sure you can always back out that's not a shame.
I hope you find peace.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

If you're not sure you can always back out that's not a shame.
I hope you find peace.

Yeah I tried to grab the cup and drink it but it's terrifying, I was legit trembling, I didn't think my SI would be this strong it's annoying.

Guy looks cute dont he?

I couldnt watch past 4:44

Yeah a shame. I don't like watching people die either

 

[ManyADreadfulNight]

Hey, if you're not ready yet that's perfectly okay. Take care of yourself. If you are, good luck and I hope you find peace either way. <3

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

Hey, if you're not ready yet that's perfectly okay. Take care of yourself. If you are, good luck and I hope you find peace either way. <3

Living is painful and I'm also terrified of dying, it's really shitty man…perhaps tomorrow. I feel like I'm faking it but I'm really not the cups are right there I spent like 80 dollars on sn and 60 or smth on antiemetics that have yet to arrive—life sucks man

 

[Ultimate Subhuman]

May your journey be peaceful

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/video-of-man-dying-by-sn.242458/

Like this

Jeez, looking at this video I suggest you wait for the antiemetics. He was also choking on his vomit

Living is painful and I'm also terrified of dying, it's really shitty man…perhaps tomorrow. I feel like I'm faking it but I'm really not the cups are right there I spent like 80 dollars on sn and 60 or smth on antiemetics that have yet to arrive—life sucks man

 

[Quietist]

It's crazy how we're not even allowed to have someone in the room with us, let alone guiding us in a moment such as this because of legality.

As others said, it's okay if you aren't ready and it's okay if you change your mind altogether.

You're not faking it - choosing to die is not easy.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

It's crazy how we're not even allowed to have someone in the room with us, let alone guiding us in a moment such as this because of legality.

As others said, it's okay if you aren't ready and it's okay if you change your mind altogether.

You're not faking it - choosing to die is not easy.

I would love someone to help me do it but yeah that'd be messy legally

 

[ManyADreadfulNight]

Living is painful and I'm also terrified of dying, it's really shitty man…perhaps tomorrow. I feel like I'm faking it but I'm really not the cups are right there I spent like 80 dollars on sn and 60 or smth on antiemetics that have yet to arrive—life sucks man

I often feel like I'm faking my suicidality just by nature of the fact that I haven't succeeded yet, but it's really no one's place to say what a person really wants or is feeling. But I can say that you probably don't wanna die scared and shaking like this. Please give yourself a break and get some sleep or something. Life sucks, but death shouldn't.

 

[peacebenow]

It is a terrifying thing. Take care of yourself and wish you peace.

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I have the sn cups ready, all I need to do is drink. I wonder how the other people who caught the bus using this method felt.

I felt at first impression scared from SN because it's the first time i order something to kill myself and also a bit of anxiety.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

I felt at first impression scared from SN because it's the first time i order something to kill myself and also a bit of anxiety.

Ordering it was easy for me, it even made me feel relief. But drinking it? I guess I overestimated myself

 

[ZeroRedz02]

Ordering it was easy for me, it even made me feel relief. But drinking it? I guess I overestimated myself

I think me too (about overestimation) but even for me i felt like a bit of relief knowing that i was to leave this world but still haven't happened and it was a waste of money cause even was all completely solidified at first arrive, anyway i know that SN is odorless it was it for you?

P.S: I will order a second SN from a french guy trusted from a guy which is his friend and is active in this forum.

 

[DeathSweetDeath]

It's for the best to postpone it anyway since you don't have your antiemetics yet.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

I think me too (about overestimation) but even for me i felt like a bit of relief knowing that i was to leave this world but still haven't happened and it was a waste of money cause even was all completely solidified at first arrive, anyway i know that SN is odorless it was it for you?

I'm pretty sure you can grind it if it's solidified! Mine came in a sealed plastic bag and I thought it smelled strong for a sec, but yeah the sn itself is odorless

 

[iwkmsssb]

i hope you find happiness and peace in whichever path you choose, it's really frustrating wanting to die yet not having the courage to do so. si is a bitch

 

[ZeroRedz02]

I'm pretty sure you can grind it if it's solidified! Mine came in a sealed plastic bag and I thought it smelled strong for a sec, but yeah the sn itself is odorless

Yes of course i could do, but i think that it did pass alot of time i did bought it some week ago and not still in a sealed bag, so i don't know what you think about it?

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

Yes of course i could do, but i think that it did pass alot of time i did bought it some week ago and not still in a sealed bag, so i don't know what you think about it?

Oh maybe it absorbed moisture then, shame

 

[ManyADreadfulNight]

You doing alright rn? I know last time I was left shaking from an attempt it took a bit to wear off. Plus it sucked that I couldn't talk to anyone I knew about it because they woulda sent me to the psych ward again lol.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

Yeah I'm fine right now I'm eating since I haven't eaten in like 12 hours. And yeah last time I tried to talk about my suicide thoughts I got sent to a psych ward, not a fun experience. How was ur experience?

You doing alright rn? I know last time I was left shaking from an attempt it took a bit to wear off. Plus it sucked that I couldn't talk to anyone I knew about it because they woulda sent me to the psych ward again lol.

 

[ManyADreadfulNight]

Yeah I'm fine right now I'm eating since I haven't eaten in like 12 hours. And yeah last time I tried to talk about my suicide thoughts I got sent to a psych ward, not a fun experience. How was ur experience?

Okay, good. It can be really jarring. And yeahhh, it really sucked. I've been hospitalised a good number of times at this point and Istg I get worse in there. I only really end up leaving when I decide I've gotta start lying again. Last time I was locked up for a good 5 months. No bueno.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

Okay, good. It can be really jarring. And yeahhh, it really sucked. I've been hospitalised a good number of times at this point and Istg I get worse in there. I only really end up leaving when I decide I've gotta start lying again. Last time I was locked up for a good 5 months. No bueno.

5 MONTHS? God I'd lose my mind, I've only been hospitalized once and only for 5 days. Psychwards are horrible I don't know why they're a thing, nobody wants to be locked somewhere without seeing their family or having their own routine..

 

[ManyADreadfulNight]

5 MONTHS? God I'd lose my mind, I've only been hospitalized once and only for 5 days. Psychwards are horrible I don't know why they're a thing, nobody wants to be locked somewhere without seeing their family or having their own routine..

My god, yes. Like, how do they expect a depressed person's situation to improve when they leave them in a place with raging schizophrenics as their only form of social interaction? I got put on a "phone plan" so I couldn't call home as often because I was on the phone for over 45 minutes lol. Doesn't make any sense. My first ever stay only lasted a week, but they kinda increased exponentially from there.

 

[Lambybahhhhhh]

That's insane to me I genuienly felt like a house pet when I was there, can't imagine how it felt for months. I guess they expect you to reflect?