I'm sorry

[Churaak]

Now it's official, I'm going to attempt to cease my life tomorrow morning.
Method SN.
My body, my choice as some would say lol.
I'm stressed and looking for peace. I'm not gonna find it here, so I will try to search somewhere else.
I'm weak cause I was led to being weak my whole life.
Others were feasting on my weakness and I was unable to stop it,cause I was led to from early age that it was forbidden to fight back.
Over the years of letting others shit on my head, I've gone insane.
What is worse though, that I developed health problems that doesn't look like can be treated and severely affect my functioning.
Life is unpleasant for me.
I didn't want to give up for many years, hoping that things would get better.
Tried to fix things and only made it worse.
Simple mistakes with horrific consequences.
I've never really been myself, deconstruction of a personality at its finest.
I'm hoping for mercy and for peace.
I'm done fighting, exercises in futility.

 

[dropdeadfred]

I hear you & am wishing you the best. Life is unfair as a whole & childhood conditioning runs deep which is often damaging.
I will be here should you desire to talk about anything at all.

 

[woxihuanni]

I wish you peace and safe travels

 

[Huntfish34]

Blessings and prayers sent 2 you. Best wishes in whatever may happen.
Godspeed

 

[Disappointered]

Wishing you a safe passage and eternal peace.

 

[whywere]

Wishing you all the love, caring, empathy and kindness in htis world and the next. No matter what happens, @Churaak , you are a beloved global family member!! Walter

 

[sadworld]

I'm sorry that life has been like this for you. I hope you'll find peace and safe travels.