ushina_mashi
The pain it still remains and I'll just get denied
- Mar 13, 2025
- 20
I've always had low self-esteem and thought of myself badly but never to this extend. I don't want to share much about other people so I'm not sure how to best explain it, I know he doesn't mean what he says but I seriously can't handle hearing these things. It's like he knows exactly what will hurt me the most and I can't talk to anyone about it. I don't even have anyone else to talk to about unrelated things just to get my mind focused on something else. I genuinely feel like I'm a horrible person and don't deserve to live. I don't even know how to respond to all those insults and accusations. As much as I love spending time with him when it gets like this I want to go to sleep but I know it will be probably even worse once I wake up.
