I don't want to go too much into detail but there's a girl I met about a year ago and we became pretty close orsggy quickly and we have been together ever since, sadly she lives in another country and we can barley see eachother but that's besides the point It just a useful information for later, we kinda did plan to ctb together one day.
I cant really explain what happened rn, Im pretty sure she didn't cth without me, she's alive and I can't explain this it's too complicated but she wasnt able to respond and it's fine its okay but I'm getting scared because the last time that happened she disappeared for an eternity because she got put into a mental hospital and as we don't live together and barely see eachother irl it's really hard and I couldn't find out until she gets out and there's a slight chance she will be put in some thing where she has to stay really long and won't have her phone and I feel like that's the case kinda..
Atleast it's in the back of my mind, Im so scared that she's there and it will take so long that she finds someone better than me in this time.
Shes not like this and the last thing she said before she disappeared today was "i love you too, I love you with all my heart" but I can't get her out of my head i already miss her so much and I'm so scared of losing her, there's not a single thing on this planet that I'm more scared of than her leaving me she's really my everything and I need her in my life like the air I breathe but I genuinely don't know what to do, how do I survive until I know what's up? What do I do if she's there? What if shes there so long that she doesn't love me anymore??
It feels like I'm dying I'm crying all day long, I went on a 2 hour walk but nothing helps I feel deeply sick and scared..
Please someone give me advice, I beg y'all I really need help idk how to do this anymore I can't ctb yet because of another thing that's too long to explain now, but I need my perfect girl I need her so bad I need her here with me i can't put in words how scared I am of losing her please someone tell me how to survive this, atleast this night I cant distract myself and I probably won't be able to sleep please please someone help I feel like I'm dying
I cant really explain what happened rn, Im pretty sure she didn't cth without me, she's alive and I can't explain this it's too complicated but she wasnt able to respond and it's fine its okay but I'm getting scared because the last time that happened she disappeared for an eternity because she got put into a mental hospital and as we don't live together and barely see eachother irl it's really hard and I couldn't find out until she gets out and there's a slight chance she will be put in some thing where she has to stay really long and won't have her phone and I feel like that's the case kinda..
Atleast it's in the back of my mind, Im so scared that she's there and it will take so long that she finds someone better than me in this time.
Shes not like this and the last thing she said before she disappeared today was "i love you too, I love you with all my heart" but I can't get her out of my head i already miss her so much and I'm so scared of losing her, there's not a single thing on this planet that I'm more scared of than her leaving me she's really my everything and I need her in my life like the air I breathe but I genuinely don't know what to do, how do I survive until I know what's up? What do I do if she's there? What if shes there so long that she doesn't love me anymore??
It feels like I'm dying I'm crying all day long, I went on a 2 hour walk but nothing helps I feel deeply sick and scared..
Please someone give me advice, I beg y'all I really need help idk how to do this anymore I can't ctb yet because of another thing that's too long to explain now, but I need my perfect girl I need her so bad I need her here with me i can't put in words how scared I am of losing her please someone tell me how to survive this, atleast this night I cant distract myself and I probably won't be able to sleep please please someone help I feel like I'm dying
