I'm so afraid of failure

[deep_end]

Failure is my biggest fear, and it's really eating me up right now. I'm so afraid of failing my attempt, it is scaring the shit out of me right now. I was planning on shooting myself on Sunday but the idea of me missing and being in a much worse state petrifies me. I'm so so so so so afraid right now I'm going crazy. I've failed so much in my life I know I'm just going to mess it up or chicken out. I don't know what to do. I've become paranoid with these thoughts and everything is freaking me out right now I think I'm going through a panic attack.

 

[cloudforecast]

depends on the gun you're using, if it's a shotgun putting it in your mouth and pulling the trigger will absolutely do it, and honestly most guns will do it to. If you're that worried, you can buy a shotgun. Hope this helps your anxiety.

 

[deep_end]

depends on the gun you're using, if it's a shotgun putting it in your mouth and pulling the trigger will absolutely do it, and honestly most guns will do it to. If you're that worried, you can buy a shotgun. Hope this helps your anxiety.

not a shotgun unfortunately. I could only buy a handgun at the moment. I'm picking it up tomorrow.

 

[cloudforecast]

not a shotgun unfortunately. I could only buy a handgun at the moment. I'm picking it up tomorrow.

What caliber?

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I find it so horrific and terrifying how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering, all I want is to never suffer again and I see so much cruelty in how the option of painless, guaranteed ways to permanently cease existing are denied.

 

[thisIsNotEnough]

There's always going to be some risk of an attempt failing, but it's probably best to do so when you're relatively calm so that you execute the plan as accurately as possible.

That being said, if you're actively having a panic attack or otherwise feeling unstable, it'd probably be good to think it through some more, whatever you end up deciding. I wish you the best and I hope you find peace <3

 

[death or death]

As others said, it's best to attempt your plan in a calm mindset. Some recommend taking medication that can help to calm anxiety, but you should always know your own limits so that you don't take enough to impair your own judgment and potentially ruin your plans.