Venting I'm sick of people telling me to be positive!

[Hollowillow]

It's the reason why I became agoraphobic. To be told that I have to be a perfect ray of sunshine to be socially accepted & deserve friends. That I just need to get some sun and my traumas & physical pain will magically melt away! (Well, lacking vitamin d can cause depression but it doesn't adress my main life problems)

I hate how the very people who turned me into a shut in reproach it to me.

They hate that I come here. But people here don't shame my mood, the negative reality that I live... When I endure hell you don't tell me to be positive YOU GIVE ME A REASON TO CHEER! YOU HUG ME!!!

Please I need a hug.

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I know a hug emoji won't help much, but it's the best I can do. Still, I'm sure it's a better way to help you feel more positive than being bossed around by people who only want you to be positive so they can feel better. It's not right that they blamed you for not being able to do what they wanted either.

 

[SunshineAndSuicide]

Toxic positivity is why so many people ctb. Fake caring and bs words of encouragement instead of real help is the problem

 

[hamvil]

A big hug for you @Hollowillow I stopped all kind os social interaction a long ago. Nobody knows I hang out on this web site and anyway I would not have anyone to tell. In a way I envy you that at least have somebody to talk with.

If we were in person I would hub you and we could share how depressed we both feel. At least I would know that I am talking with a person that understands why I want to leave and would not give me false positivism.

 

[Hollowillow]

Toxic positivity is why so many people ctb. Fake caring and bs words of encouragement instead of real help is the problem

Yes! Thank you! Oh I don't even get words of encouragements, just demands to act happy as if I wasn't fucking dying of preventable causes!

 

[makethepainstop]

If Star Trek-type transporters were available, I would love to hug each and every one of you here. We all share a pain unknown to most mortals. Love to all here.

 

[Hollowillow]

A big hug for you @Hollowillow I stopped all kind os social interaction a long ago. Nobody knows I hang out on this web site and anyway I would not have anyone to tell. In a way I envy you that at least have somebody to talk with.

If we were in person I would hub you and we could share how depressed we both feel. At least I would know that I am talking with a person that understands why I want to leave and would not give me false positivism.

Bunny! *Hugs you back* thank you. Aww, yeah, I'm grateful that her main hobby is to talk, but her ways are antidepressants and denial? Oh and religion. She's happier than me... Loads of people helping her with lifts, food, activities... But she can't expect me to be in the same happy minset after gaslight, cops, not eating, and a suicide attempt! Why doesn't she bring ME food and give me a lift to fun places too. I don't have the same lufe quality. She invited me to meet a friend who bullied me, then demanded 100% positivity to meet the other. I don't want to be delusional being happy over things I've lost! I'm crippled. I need someone to say "I understand, I feel your pain, I'm here to watch over you. You can dare to go out, I'm here if you pass out, I'll help you crossthe street so you won't be hit by another car. If you panic or feel sad, I'll still be your friend."

I understand that she suffers a lot and need a break, but I can't be a fucking clown right now! My brain is rotting in my skull! From the accident, chemical, lack of appetite... I'm a mess... I lost myself... I lost everything that gave me joy... I can't even ride a bycicle & watch tv. And all they care about is not stain their party! Well I can't, it's too much pressure! I can't be coerced to be happy!

I appreciate that you understand me more, I'd rather talk with you

If Star Trek-type transporters were available, I would love to hug each and every one of you here. We all share a pain unknown to most mortals. Love to all here.

Me too! I like everyone here, I have favorites but I trust strangers. We're the same.

But I'm scared to go on that transporter. We can get spliced. If my molecules are decomposed & recomposed... Are they the same? Is my soul dead & a new clone lives with my memories? I get pulverized to dust! No wait that might be win win

 

[hamvil]

Bunny! *Hugs you back* thank you. Aww, yeah, I'm grateful that her main hobby is to talk, but her ways are antidepressants and denial? Oh and religion. She's happier than me... Loads of people helping her with lifts, food, activities... But she can't expect me to be in the same happy minset after gaslight, cops, not eating, and a suicide attempt! Why doesn't she bring ME food and give me a lift to fun places too. I don't have the same lufe quality. She invited me to meet a friend who bullied me, then demanded 100% positivity to meet the other. I don't want to be delusional being happy over things I've lost! I'm crippled. I need someone to say "I understand, I feel your pain, I'm here to watch over you. You can dare to go out, I'm here if you pass out, I'll help you crossthe street so you won't be hit by another car. If you panic or feel sad, I'll still be your friend."

i know the feeling. My wife is providing some of this support as much as she can. She loves me but she does not have the tools to understand me. She is sort of a loser, she never studied, never worked never achieved anything in her life. So she cannot understand how I feel now. Truth to be told I am just a different type of loser. Talking with religious people is just pointless, if you are in a good mood you can do it just to laugh a bit but they will not get it and will revert to their pre canned responses. I can be the one that says that understands you, but I would not be able to watch over anybody, I would probably do more harm than good and I am high maintenance so another person would probably run away very quickly

I understand that she suffers a lot and need a break, but I can't be a fucking clown right now! My brain is rotting in my skull! From the accident, chemical, lack of appetite... I'm a mess... I lost myself... I lost everything that gave me joy... I can't even ride a bycicle & watch tv. And all they care about is not stain their party! Well I can't, it's too much pressure! I can't be coerced to be happy!

People like us are perceived as the worst thing in a party. They are worried we will make some scene or that we will spoil the fun. Maybe they are right, at least in my case. I am not good in conversations and in general I can snap quite easily. Would not want myself in a party.

Your last sentence is funny. My mother used to beat me hard during my birthdays because I was not happy enough. She would do it in front of the other kids without showing any remorse. I still remember one time that she made me bleed. Man, what a fucked up childhood.

I appreciate that you understand me more, I'd rather talk with you

I am here for you.

Me too! I like everyone here, I have favorites but I trust strangers. We're the same.

That must be a good feeling. I tend not to trust people in general. I like the messages of some people indeed.

But I'm scared to go on that transporter. We can get spliced. If my molecules are decomposed & recomposed... Are they the same? Is my soul dead & a new clone lives with my memories? I get pulverized to dust! No wait that might be win win

Maybe I can get reassembled without some defects? I do not belive in soul so I am good from that point of view. Would be nice to be stored in an archive. I would love to waake up in 200 years and check the world.

 

[Suicidebydeath]

Please I need a hug.

*hugs*

 

[Hollowillow]

i know the feeling. My wife is providing some of this support as much as she can. She loves me but she does not have the tools to understand me. She is sort of a loser, she never studied, never worked never achieved anything in her life. So she cannot understand how I feel now. Truth to be told I am just a different type of loser. Talking with religious people is just pointless, if you are in a good mood you can do it just to laugh a bit but they will not get it and will revert to their pre canned responses. I can be the one that says that understands you, but I would not be able to watch over anybody, I would probably do more harm than good and I am high maintenance so another person would probably run away very quickly

People like us are perceived as the worst thing in a party. They are worried we will make some scene or that we will spoil the fun. Maybe they are right, at least in my case. I am not good in conversations and in general I can snap quite easily. Would not want myself in a party.

Your last sentence is funny. My mother used to beat me hard during my birthdays because I was not happy enough. She would do it in front of the other kids without showing any remorse. I still remember one time that she made me bleed. Man, what a fucked up childhood.

I am here for you.

That must be a good feeling. I tend not to trust people in general. I like the messages of some people indeed.

Maybe I can get reassembled without some defects? I do not belive in soul so I am good from that point of view. Would be nice to be stored in an archive. I would love to waake up in 200 years and check the world.

Your wife sounds ike the ultimate winner. No work or study, just being someone's pet? If she loved it, loved you, that was a massive win. But if you had to work for 2, you must be burned out...

Your mom is horrific. Ater being beaten on a birthday once I'd never want another, I'd never smile on one again. For me it was xmass, she let my sister beat me because my cough was loud... I needed a doctor and real food.

I like & trust you. I know you're not faking pain to scam me.

I got bed ridden for decades and felt like society jumped forward. It felt like the guy waking in the movie Idiocracy. We care about superficial shit too much. Games lost their epic story (ff tactic was amazing... Ff x was awful) people would rather get likes on facebook than meet a friend... It sucks.

*hugs*

*Hugs you back* thank you, hihi. Short but you get me.

 

[jodes2]

Lots of hugs

 

[hamvil]

Your wife sounds ike the ultimate winner. No work or study, just being someone's pet? If she loved it, loved you, that was a massive win. But if you had to work for 2, you must be burned out...

yes and no, for most of my life I had a dream job. I was working 70./80 hours a week and enjoying it. Well paid too, so we could live without problems even if I only worked. Then I lost it (literally) and now I am doing a silly job that I do not like.

She is indeed the winner here. She likes her life, she takes care of the house, of me. We do not have sex since 5. years, I do not feel that attracted by her but anyway when I tried with other women I did not get attracted either. So now I mostly watch porn.

Low expectations are key to be happy in life.

Your mom is horrific. Ater being beaten on a birthday once I'd never want another, I'd never smile on one again. For me it was xmass, she let my sister beat me because my cough was loud... I needed a doctor and real food.

You will not believe this, but she used to beat me even when I was sick because according to her I was not getting better soon enough. I remember me sitting in from of the heater when she was away because I thought that I would get better sooner and I was scared that I would be beaten again when she is back home (which was true).

She killed herself when I was 14. She was depressed but I did not understand that at the time.

I like & trust you. I know you're not faking pain to scam me.

Strange scam, no I am not faking pain. I have plenty of it.

I got bed ridden for decades and felt like society jumped forward. It felt like the guy waking in the movie Idiocracy. We care about superficial shit too much. Games lost their epic story (ff tactic was amazing... Ff x was awful) people would rather get likes on facebook than meet a friend... It sucks.

Well the guy in idiocracy was not a smart one, but compared to the other was a genius. I would love to just be stupid, superficial and interested in the last gadget. I would love to discuss with people about the last trend on Instagram or about the stupid political topics. I would love to be the homophobic racist guy that seems to be so popular nowadays. I would love to be the standard white christian.

Not sure about your age. I am 43 so I remember some quite epic games. I miss the good old Lucas adventures. I know I will be disappointed by the new Monkey Island game. I love the old assassin creed but I also enjoy the new ones. I also like simple RPGs like Skyrim and Fallout. Too bad I am not into multiplayer otherwise we could play together.

 

[Hollowillow]

Lots of hugs

Yay! Wow thank you! I'll miss you damnit. But it makes our time more precious.

 

[freedompass]

Your last sentence is funny. My mother used to beat me hard during my birthdays because I was not happy enough. She would do it in front of the other kids without showing any remorse. I still remember one time that she made me bleed. Man, what a fucked up childhood.

Man. That is just. Awful

 

[Hollowillow]

yes and no, for most of my life I had a dream job. I was working 70./80 hours a week and enjoying it. Well paid too, so we could live without problems even if I only worked. Then I lost it (literally) and now I am doing a silly job that I do not like.

She is indeed the winner here. She likes her life, she takes care of the house, of me. We do not have sex since 5. years, I do not feel that attracted by her but anyway when I tried with other women I did not get attracted either. So now I mostly watch porn.

Low expectations are key to be happy in life.

You will not believe this, but she used to beat me even when I was sick because according to her I was not getting better soon enough. I remember me sitting in from of the heater when she was away because I thought that I would get better sooner and I was scared that I would be beaten again when she is back home (which was true).

She killed herself when I was 14. She was depressed but I did not understand that at the time.

Strange scam, no I am not faking pain. I have plenty of it.

Well the guy in idiocracy was not a smart one, but compared to the other was a genius. I would love to just be stupid, superficial and interested in the last gadget. I would love to discuss with people about the last trend on Instagram or about the stupid political topics. I would love to be the homophobic racist guy that seems to be so popular nowadays. I would love to be the standard white christian.

Not sure about your age. I am 43 so I remember some quite epic games. I miss the good old Lucas adventures. I know I will be disappointed by the new Monkey Island game. I love the old assassin creed but I also enjoy the new ones. I also like simple RPGs like Skyrim and Fallout. Too bad I am not into multiplayer otherwise we could play together.

Woaa! 80h a week is twice the maximum standard. Even if you lived it, that burns out someone.

What silly job? I'm sorry you hate it... What was the previous one?

Not even sex for your birthday or xmass? Can't you spice things up with stuff, tenderness, roleplay? I think porn put unrealistic expectations.

Your mom is double horrific. I punched mine at 16, it unlocked my self esteem. Sorry but I'm glad she died. It must have been traumatic but depression doesn't justify torturing a sick child. Stress weakens the immune system so she made you sick. It'slike stabbing someone & blaming hom fir the blood. I hope it got better after?

Sometimes I worry that someone will pretend to seek a ctb partner to rape them while inconscious, and wake up pregnant. Or pro life coming here to sell religions... But I know you're sincere.

I'm dumb sometimes. I'm glad you're not one of those mean people

I didn't know the lucas games? I was into mario & zelda. Then FF, then fables. Okami and odin sphere were amazing. I miss playing but it overstimulate my brain. New games flash too much.

*Hugs*

 

[hamvil]

Woaa! 80h a week is twice the maximum standard. Even if you lived it, that burns out someone.

I was burned, badly but I did not notice it. I would cope with eating. I do not smoke nor do drug. I drink but not too much so my way of relieving stress was with food. I eat even when not rally hungry. Funny thing. I used to go to bed with the laptop on my laps. Often I would fall asleep while replying to some mail, then wake like at 2 and keep writing like if nothing happened.

What silly job? I'm sorry you hate it... What was the previous one?

I was a manager in an international research center (working the STEM field). It was a highly creative job, I had a big team to manage and we created new technology every day. It was great.

I fucked it up because of an hateful tweet I posted, got fired and never really recovered from it.

Now I am professor in a shitty university, the one where loser student go just to get a useless degree thinking it will help in their lives. The boss is abusive and cannot connect with colleagues.

Not even sex for your birthday or xmass? Can't you spice things up with stuff, tenderness, roleplay? I think porn put unrealistic expectations.

Nope. She is very conservative. To the point that she does two positions only. She is tender but she would not do any role play. Not even the classical nurse or student :D Yeah porn puts unrealistic expectations.

Your mom is double horrific. I punched mine at 16, it unlocked my self esteem. Sorry but I'm glad she died. It must have been traumatic but depression doesn't justify torturing a sick child. Stress weakens the immune system so she made you sick. It'slike stabbing someone & blaming hom fir the blood. I hope it got better after?

Kids would laugh at me after she beat me but she would not raise the damage she was doing. She kept telling me I was a mistake and that I should not have born. She kept comparing me with the kids of other moms, saying how ugly I am how incapable I am and that she was ashamed of me. I was not very lucky about that.

No, it did not get better after. I can tell you in private if you want.

Sometimes I worry that someone will pretend to seek a ctb partner to rape them while inconscious, and wake up pregnant. Or pro life coming here to sell religions... But I know you're sincere.

I would not propose you to be my ctb partner. too risky. pro life religious would give a bit of fun at least.

I'm dumb sometimes. I'm glad you're not one of those mean people

I am dumb. I have no emotional intelligence at all. I am not a good person dear. I know that and there is nothing I can do.

I didn't know the lucas games? I was into mario & zelda. Then FF, then fables. Okami and odin sphere were amazing. I miss playing but it overstimulate my brain. New games flash too much.

You are way younger then LOL

*Hugs*

For you as well dear.

 

[makethepainstop]

Sometimes when I am told to be positive about something...........I see in my mind's eye the person telling me this being choked a la Homer Simpson, with tongue hanging out and eyes bulging. Then they have that annoying habit of telling you to think positive about the situation. Being a bit of a smart alec, I like to respond that I AM positive that things that are troubling me will get worse. That has been known to silence a few of those life is what you make it fools.

 

[Hollowillow]

I was burned, badly but I did not notice it. I would cope with eating. I do not smoke nor do drug. I drink but not too much so my way of relieving stress was with food. I eat even when not rally hungry. Funny thing. I used to go to bed with the laptop on my laps. Often I would fall asleep while replying to some mail, then wake like at 2 and keep writing like if nothing happened.

I was a manager in an international research center (working the STEM field). It was a highly creative job, I had a big team to manage and we created new technology every day. It was great.

I fucked it up because of an hateful tweet I posted, got fired and never really recovered from it.

Now I am professor in a shitty university, the one where loser student go just to get a useless degree thinking it will help in their lives. The boss is abusive and cannot connect with colleagues.

Nope. She is very conservative. To the point that she does two positions only. She is tender but she would not do any role play. Not even the classical nurse or student :D Yeah porn puts unrealistic expectations.

Kids would laugh at me after she beat me but she would not raise the damage she was doing. She kept telling me I was a mistake and that I should not have born. She kept comparing me with the kids of other moms, saying how ugly I am how incapable I am and that she was ashamed of me. I was not very lucky about that.

No, it did not get better after. I can tell you in private if you want.

I would not propose you to be my ctb partner. too risky. pro life religious would give a bit of fun at least.

I am dumb. I have no emotional intelligence at all. I am not a good person dear. I know that and there is nothing I can do.

You are way younger then LOL

For you as well dear.

Makes sense to eat. Vitamin c is the best to heal, and in nature it tastes sweet. But if we go for commercial sugary junk, our SI gets fooled... We get poisonned & starve... "Obese people are strarving for nutrient" that blew my mind.

Wow it sounds fun! What was the tweet about? I got banned for being aginst honnor crimes, killing wife & kids who stopped wearing the... Religious veil? I was against sexist murder not race. We shouldn't lose a career over a tweet. Like the harry potter creator wanting us to not blindly let trans people do anything unchecked, because fake trans could sneak in women bathroom to do rape. She got banned from her own creation! Ingrates.

I'm sorry that your boss is abusive that's the worst type of jobs.

Aww porn & your wife are 2 extremes on the spectrum. Might be nice with lots of tenderness? If you get used to big bang porn... That's even more vanilla by comparison...

Kids laughed, mean friends. My narcissistic mom said exactly the same! You're welcome by pm. I can reply slow because I wait to be ready to put more care, but I like it.

I think our moms were ashamed of themselves and trying to shift the blame on a helpless punching bag.

You're way more fun than someone wanting to give my soul to their god.

Yeah... Risky... But would be easier, I can't figure out sn.

Everyone is good and bad. You're my type of bad

I can feel so many emotions from you. Why do you think you're dumb? For not knowing how to cuddle your wife? Maybe it's trauma & shyness. Restart dating her from zero? Woo her? I can feel your empathy for us.

I'm 42 but got games late?

Thank you

 

[hamvil]

Makes sense to eat. Vitamin c is the best to heal, and in nature it tastes sweet. But if we go for commercial sugary junk, our SI gets fooled... We get poisonned & starve... "Obese people are strarving for nutrient" that blew my mind.

Depending on the time or place. I always liked good food and I could afford it. So I would go also to fancy places. But I would also binge eat crap at airports. I was in airports a lot.

Wow it sounds fun! What was the tweet about? I got banned for being aginst honnor crimes, killing wife & kids who stopped wearing the... Religious veil? I was against sexist murder not race. We shouldn't lose a career over a tweet. Like the harry potter creator wanting us to not blindly let trans people do anything unchecked, because fake trans could sneak in women bathroom to do rape. She got banned from her own creation! Ingrates.

That is the funny thing, I DID NOT get banned from tweeter but I got fired. I will tell you in private because disclosing the tweet could allow the people identify me. It is easy to lose a career over social media. I was never good with it. I deleted facebook and Instagram because I was not able to control my anger. Twitter got me.

I'm sorry that your boss is abusive that's the worst type of jobs.

He is a small minded person. He is in a shitty university and think he is the most important academic of the world. Delusional, the worse kind.

Aww porn & your wife are 2 extremes on the spectrum. Might be nice with lots of tenderness? If you get used to big bang porn... That's even more vanilla by comparison...

Indeed very far.

Kids laughed, mean friends. My narcissistic mom said exactly the same! You're welcome by pm. I can reply slow because I wait to be ready to put more care, but I like it.

ok

I think our moms were ashamed of themselves and trying to shift the blame on a helpless punching bag.

She had some serious problems, indeed.

You're way more fun than someone wanting to give my soul to their god.

Do not have a god, Hope he/she is not there as well or I am fucked.

Yeah... Risky... But would be easier, I can't figure out sn.

Who knows, even if you have the glass in front of you it takes courage.

Everyone is good and bad. You're my type of bad

I can feel so many emotions from you. Why do you think you're dumb? For not knowing how to cuddle your wife? Maybe it's trauma & shyness. Restart dating her from zero? Woo her? I can feel your empathy for us.

I am dumb because I have no emotional intelligence, I am unable to talk to people of topic that are outside my work. I have no friends.

I'm 42 but got games late?

Hello dear

Thank you

Welcome

 

[Hollowillow]

Sometimes when I am told to be positive about something...........I see in my mind's eye the person telling me this being choked a la Homer Simpson, with tongue hanging out and eyes bulging. Then they have that annoying habit of telling you to think positive about the situation. Being a bit of a smart alec, I like to respond that I AM positive that things that are troubling me will get worse. That has been known to silence a few of those life is what you make it fools.

Sweet! I'll try to remember homer strangling them

Depending on the time or place. I always liked good food and I could afford it. So I would go also to fancy places. But I would also binge eat crap at airports. I was in airports a lot.

That is the funny thing, I DID NOT get banned from tweeter but I got fired. I will tell you in private because disclosing the tweet could allow the people identify me. It is easy to lose a career over social media. I was never good with it. I deleted facebook and Instagram because I was not able to control my anger. Twitter got me.


He is a small minded person. He is in a shitty university and think he is the most important academic of the world. Delusional, the worse kind.

Indeed very far.

ok

She had some serious problems, indeed.

Do not have a god, Hope he/she is not there as well or I am fucked.

Who knows, even if you have the glass in front of you it takes courage.

I am dumb because I have no emotional intelligence, I am unable to talk to people of topic that are outside my work. I have no friends.

Hello dear

Welcome

Your boss sounds like a narc. I'd love the story in private?

Emotional intelligence is merely to be able to read emotions on faces. It's not about social skill. It's normal to not know every topics (I know someone who seem to know all trivia though) introverts are like this, we're thinkers so it's harder to be outgoing. But not from a lack of intelligence or emotions. We're basically just shy and need 1 on 1 time. You can talk about your stuff, learn about their stuff... Then you know more about stuff stuff. (I guess my friend spoke to many people)

I have no friends I can invite to places too, or who come with food when I'm sick... But you have a wife.

 

[Shikamaru]

Eminem sums it up pretty well … ➳♡

"I'm tired of all of this bullshit
Telling me to be positive
How am I 'posed to be positive when I don't see shit positive?
Y'know what I'm saying?
I rap about shit around me, shit I see
And right now I'm tired of everything"​

 

[g0921]

Send them a covid positive test result, that would be close enough.

 

[Hollowillow]

Send them a covid positive test result, that would be close enough.

Oh god I WISH! I tried to catch it so hard, took off my mask in the criwded subway in the train's butt where all the air & snot gathers, I dropped food on that floor and ate it. I'm immortal I think I got it at the very start. And with all the vitamin C I take for pain, it boosts my immune system too.

I bet the dark web sell positive tests to get free vacations

 

[Shikamaru]

Oh god I WISH! I tried to catch it so hard, took off my mask in the criwded subway in the train's butt where all the air & snot gathers, I dropped food on that floor and ate it. I'm immortal I think I got it at the very start. And with all the vitamin C I take for pain, it boosts my immune system too.

I bet the dark web sell positive tests to get free vacations

Don't need dark web for that, just take a photo of a blank one and photoshop a red line onto it and voila, from experience

 

[emgrl]

Depending on the time or place. I always liked good food and I could afford it. So I would go also to fancy places. But I would also binge eat crap at airports. I was in airports a lot.

That is the funny thing, I DID NOT get banned from tweeter but I got fired. I will tell you in private because disclosing the tweet could allow the people identify me. It is easy to lose a career over social media. I was never good with it. I deleted facebook and Instagram because I was not able to control my anger. Twitter got me.


He is a small minded person. He is in a shitty university and think he is the most important academic of the world. Delusional, the worse kind.

Indeed very far.

ok

She had some serious problems, indeed.

Do not have a god, Hope he/she is not there as well or I am fucked.

Who knows, even if you have the glass in front of you it takes courage.

I am dumb because I have no emotional intelligence, I am unable to talk to people of topic that are outside my work. I have no friends.

Hello dear

Welcome

I'm so sorry we're all going through such horrible pain, although it's all different kinds, they all hurt us in some way.
I've been catching up on this whole thread, and I've seen you mention an inappropriate tweet in other threads… I must say, I'm so curious! May I PM you? I'd like to know what your tweet was as well.
If not, I understand. Sending much love and hugs either way!

 

[hamvil]

I'm so sorry we're all going through such horrible pain, although it's all different kinds, they all hurt us in some way.
I've been catching up on this whole thread, and I've seen you mention an inappropriate tweet in other threads… I must say, I'm so curious! May I PM you? I'd like to know what your tweet was as well.
If not, I understand. Sending much love and hugs either way!

Sure you can PM me. Thanks for the hugs.

 

[Hollowillow]

Don't need dark web for that, just take a photo of a blank one and photoshop a red line onto it and voila, from experience

I'm good at photoshop, I could probably add the black plague to my photo.

Sure you can PM me. Thanks for the hugs.

Yay pm makes us official friends *hugs* yay

 

[emgrl]

I'm good at photoshop, I could probably add the black plague to my photo.

Yay pm makes us official friends *hugs* yay

You can PM me anytime, too!

 

[Jimblue]

yes and no, for most of my life I had a dream job. I was working 70./80 hours a week and enjoying it. Well paid too, so we could live without problems even if I only worked. Then I lost it (literally) and now I am doing a silly job that I do not like.

She is indeed the winner here. She likes her life, she takes care of the house, of me. We do not have sex since 5. years, I do not feel that attracted by her but anyway when I tried with other women I did not get attracted either. So now I mostly watch porn.

Low expectations are key to be happy in life.

You will not believe this, but she used to beat me even when I was sick because according to her I was not getting better soon enough. I remember me sitting in from of the heater when she was away because I thought that I would get better sooner and I was scared that I would be beaten again when she is back home (which was true).

She killed herself when I was 14. She was depressed but I did not understand that at the time.

Strange scam, no I am not faking pain. I have plenty of it.

Well the guy in idiocracy was not a smart one, but compared to the other was a genius. I would love to just be stupid, superficial and interested in the last gadget. I would love to discuss with people about the last trend on Instagram or about the stupid political topics. I would love to be the homophobic racist guy that seems to be so popular nowadays. I would love to be the standard white christian.

Not sure about your age. I am 43 so I remember some quite epic games. I miss the good old Lucas adventures. I know I will be disappointed by the new Monkey Island game. I love the old assassin creed but I also enjoy the new ones. I also like simple RPGs like Skyrim and Fallout. Too bad I am not into multiplayer otherwise we could play together.

Oh my god, feeling we had same mother

 

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Oh my god, feeling we had same mother

It sadly makes sense that such mothers make people suicidal... Mine too