soontobec0rpse
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- May 27, 2023
- 37
I think I'm scaring my boyfriend away. I can't handle another breakup. Especially not ours. He's the only person in my LIFE who has truly made me feel loved and cared for. If I lose him I have nothing. I won't find a love like that again. he's been leaving me on delivered for hours at a time (10+) and when we talk he's very slow to respond. I think he's getting sick of me. I won't keep trying if he leaves me. Im trying so desperately to fix it but it doesn't seem like I can. I cut myself and he told me to throw away my blade and when I hesitated he got angry. I'd do anything for him. He is my entire reason to live right now. He stopped responding to me. I'm not going to survive another breakup. I don't want to. I've already given so much of myself to him. I'm not doing it again. This is my last opportunity to live. My last chance. I was planning to ctb when we started talking and I thought just maybe I could live. If he leaves me that's it. No more.
