I'm not scared of death, I actually think i would enjoy it.
I failed a hanging attempt before and it was a complete black out.
It was pure bliss you might say.
no noise, no narcissists and no abusive human beings.
What could be better?
What I am scared of is failing,
failing badly enough to leave me paralysed.
This would be a hell worse than dying.
I'v experienced being strapped to bed of a psych ward
and then sexually assaulted be other patients before.
psych patients doing psych patient things
Why was i strapped to the bad
because i was found hanging
why was I in the psych ward
because a fisher man found me floating at sea
so i assume being paralysed
would be the same as
a psych patient doing psych patient things
That is the thing which i fear
For me to say i'm scared of hanging
i'm scared of being found in time and cut down.
When i say i'm scared to try to drown
i'm scared to survive for the second time.
And if i say i am scared to try the inert gas
i'm scared it wont work.
The saddest part of all of this
is that its not like humans haven't
developed human based euthanasia
we have, and its called Nembutal,
Its highly efficient, a guaranteed pain free exit you might say.
Yet governments have outlawed it.
Why should i be forced to live in pain for other peoples financial gain.
For the life of me I cannot understand
And with life I hope to pay.
I failed a hanging attempt before and it was a complete black out.
It was pure bliss you might say.
no noise, no narcissists and no abusive human beings.
What could be better?
What I am scared of is failing,
failing badly enough to leave me paralysed.
This would be a hell worse than dying.
I'v experienced being strapped to bed of a psych ward
and then sexually assaulted be other patients before.
psych patients doing psych patient things
Why was i strapped to the bad
because i was found hanging
why was I in the psych ward
because a fisher man found me floating at sea
so i assume being paralysed
would be the same as
a psych patient doing psych patient things
That is the thing which i fear
For me to say i'm scared of hanging
i'm scared of being found in time and cut down.
When i say i'm scared to try to drown
i'm scared to survive for the second time.
And if i say i am scared to try the inert gas
i'm scared it wont work.
The saddest part of all of this
is that its not like humans haven't
developed human based euthanasia
we have, and its called Nembutal,
Its highly efficient, a guaranteed pain free exit you might say.
Yet governments have outlawed it.
Why should i be forced to live in pain for other peoples financial gain.
For the life of me I cannot understand
And with life I hope to pay.
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