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[vanilladust]

Hi everyone, I'm new here. I plan on CTB if things don't get better soon. Maybe January. Right now I'm hoping witchcraft and Santa Muerte will help me out. I recently got out of the hospital a month ago for ideations but I was too scared to do it. I've been researching the exit bag method. I would want something cheap and painless but not quick. Sometimes I wish I could die and comeback, tell God all my grievances and ask him to make my life better. But the chances of me dying and coming back are slim, I would probably end up paralyzed or something. I was promise marriage but had a breakup in July and I've fallen apart since. I dropped out of university and just sit at home all day and rot. I went off the radar with IRL friends and people i knew. I just disappeared. I feel so alone and like a failure.

 

[BeAtPeace]

You're not alone, welcome to the community

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

Welcome. Sorry you had to find your way here.

 

[vanilladust]

You're not alone, welcome to the community

Thank you

Welcome. Sorry you had to find your way here.

Thank you. I'm only 21 but I'm just so tired already.

 

[user56765567]

Fist off, welcome to the community. Secondly, It sucks you have had to go through those things and feel the way that you do now. I know what it's like to feel alone and like a failure. Most people in my life seem to remind me how much of a failure I am constantly. I am also home all day and feel like I'm just rotting away.

 

[vanilladust]

Fist off, welcome to the community. Secondly, It sucks you have had to go through those things and feel the way that you do now. I know what it's like to feel alone and like a failure. Most people in my life seem to remind me how much of a failure I am constantly. I am also home all day and feel like I'm just rotting away.

Yes, it really sucks. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm getting therapy but it's taking too long and I'm just getting worse.

 

[Yaffle]

Hi everyone, I'm new here. I plan on CTB if things don't get better soon. Maybe January. Right now I'm hoping witchcraft and Santa Muerte will help me out. I recently got out of the hospital a month ago for ideations but I was too scared to do it. I've been researching the exit bag method. I would want something cheap and painless but not quick. Sometimes I wish I could die and comeback, tell God all my grievances and ask him to make my life better. But the chances of me dying and coming back are slim, I would probably end up paralyzed or something. I was promise marriage but had a breakup in July and I've fallen apart since. I dropped out of university and just sit at home all day and rot. I went off the radar with IRL friends and people i knew. I just disappeared. I feel so alone and like a failure.

Welcome; I'm truly sorry for the life events that brought you here.

Personally I think you've chosen the joint most peaceful method, Nitrogen exit bag or CO, given we can't access N or SN.

I hope you find the forum helpful, I haven't been here long but wish I'd found it years ago.

 

[vanilladust]

Welcome; I'm truly sorry for the life events that brought you here.

Personally I think you've chosen the joint most peaceful method, Nitrogen exit bag or CO, given we can't access N or SN.

I hope you find the forum helpful, I haven't been here long but wish I'd found it years ago.

Thank you. I just want to cry. I think I'm just gonna hurt myself tonight. I don't know what else to do.

 

[DT2007]

Welcome to the community.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Welcome to the forum!

 

[loser098]

Hey there! Hope you find this place helpful.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Welcome.

 

[vanilladust]

Welcome to the community.

thank you

Welcome to the forum!

Thank you

Hey there! Hope you find this place helpful.

Thank you I hope so too

Welcome.

Thank you