KillingPain267
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- Apr 15, 2024
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It's my only goal in life. I just use my last strength to prepare everything.
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flutebloom
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KillingPain267
Enlightened
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1,943
I thought I felt better, but now I miss my old life again and I cry. It's too painful. It's the same as last year all over again.
I cry every day. I miss my old life too. But I am the one the one to blame. I take full responsibility for getting here and wanting to CTB. I am the one that ruined my old life and the unconditional love that I had and the job that I had. It is now all over for me. It is all my doing.
KillingPain267
Enlightened
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1,943
Same. Nevertheless the pain of loss is real, despite it being my fault. The only thing good is then that it's even more the better that I disappear.
I am in the same situation. My head won't let me rest and my heart is broken into billions of pieces that do not allow me to function. It is my fault and I know it now. It is my doing. I am to blame. I will never have it back.
Tell me what is going on? I hope to CTB between tomorrow night and Monday at a hotel.
terum2k
Member
- Feb 5, 2025
- 16
I don't want to be alone with the same feeling... I have so much guilt and shame. I want my old life back too, but know I destroyed it. There are no second chances and it will never be the same, she deserved so much better and it breaks me that I was the problem all along. I was so cruel and evil but also blind and delusional....
KillingPain267
Enlightened
- Apr 15, 2024
- 1,943
I'm crying in sorrow. I can't ctb just yet, so I don't know what to do for patience. Not even drugs work anymore. I wish you a safe journey though.
Take it a minute at a time. I remember sitting in the bathtub filled with hot water thinking about my life...2 hours later, I got out of the tub since it had been cold for a long time. I just did not realize that I was in the tub for 2 hours.
