eesabtbad
Member
- Jun 2, 2026
- 13
A standard venting post, nothing new.
I am a liar and I must be punished.
I had two attempts in April, both failed. I told my parents about them and they didn't believe me. My best friend and her mother offered help and since the last week of May I've been lying to all people around me that I have a therapy, because I still want to kill myself, so I think it doesn't matter if I have it or not. I needed a sick leave for my work and tomorrow I have to talk with the leadership that I got it. I didn't and I won't get it anytime in the future.
If I ignore calls from them, they will call my father. I'm in a rat trap, no way out, so suicide is my only way to get out of this situation. I know I want to do FSH, everything is planned. Tbh I don't care if I fail or not, come what may.
I am a liar and I must be punished.
I had two attempts in April, both failed. I told my parents about them and they didn't believe me. My best friend and her mother offered help and since the last week of May I've been lying to all people around me that I have a therapy, because I still want to kill myself, so I think it doesn't matter if I have it or not. I needed a sick leave for my work and tomorrow I have to talk with the leadership that I got it. I didn't and I won't get it anytime in the future.
If I ignore calls from them, they will call my father. I'm in a rat trap, no way out, so suicide is my only way to get out of this situation. I know I want to do FSH, everything is planned. Tbh I don't care if I fail or not, come what may.
