I'm going sunday

[BurningLights]

How you feel today?

I'll get back to you on that one my dude if that's cool.

 

[Xerxes]

no problem man.

 

[Thoughtforms]

I'm so sorry you're going. You seem like such a cool and nice guy. You add so much value to this place so I imagine you do IRL too. I'm really sorry you're going to go soon

 

[BurningLights]

I might not be...I got something I need to think over very fucking carefully.

 

[Jiva]

Good luck. Have a good journey.

 

[furax53]

bon voyage

 

[TiredHorse]

I might not be...I got something I need to think over very fucking carefully.

Dude, if there's anyone here I trust to think carefully about ctb, it's you. And if I'm hearing you reconsidering, I expect it's something pretty important. Take your time. The calendar is an artificial creation by the same society that we find hellish; I strongly recommend you don't make your death a slave to it.

Don't let us clutter up your thought process, but if we would be useful as a sounding board, don't hold back.

 

[Thoughtforms]

You can't go through unless you're sure because you're more likely to back out halfway through. Just my thoughts.

 

[ron_g]

I over complicated it and skipped over the first part- using the bean bags. I was almost too confident. I got fed up with it and myself to be honest. Nothing to do with the night night methods reliability. Purely user error!
And after what I saw while tripping, it kinda took the wind our of sails, had to re compose myself so to speak.

So you found the method too complex to carry out under the stress of killing oneself? I'm asking because others might have similar problems.

 

[BurningLights]

Dude, if there's anyone here I trust to think carefully about ctb, it's you. And if I'm hearing you reconsidering, I expect it's something pretty important. Take your time. The calendar is an artificial creation by the same society that we find hellish; I strongly recommend you don't make your death a slave to it.

Don't let us clutter up your thought process, but if we would be useful as a sounding board, don't hold back.

You may be a tired horse, but you're also a very wise horse my friend. Thank you kindly for your understanding

 

[BurningLights]

You can't go through unless you're sure because you're more likely to back out halfway through. Just my thoughts.

I think your right there

 

[BurningLights]

So you found the method too complex to carry out under the stress of killing oneself? I'm asking because others might have similar problems.

I made it too complex, as I said, start from the beginning, buy the bean bags, regretting skipoing over that. Also I just wasn't in the right frame of mind when the time came.

 

[Bex83]

I made it too complex, as I said, start from the beginning, buy the bean bags, regretting skipoing over that. Also I just wasn't in the right frame of mind when the time came.

Nobody's bothered, everyone enjoys your post, do it when it's the right time :)

 

[Swisher]

I might not be...I got something I need to think over very fucking carefully.

Everyone is here for you. You really are a chill guy. I'd miss that

 

[Sinbad]

No shame in backing down. It's your life after all, your decision alone.

This website SS is not some sick 'counting down' game. We are here to support you and others, only. Ideally, everyone here discovers the right solution to their problems. Suicide is not always the solution.

 

[BurningLights]

For fuck sake, I just wrote a whole long post out only for it not fucking post.

I'll try again.
It may be a bit less eloquent than my previous attempt.

I give up, the universe has won.
I spoke to someone very dear to me today, and they have been called back after a routine cancer testing.
I know this will probably be nothing serious, however, they are very upset as well as people around them. I simply cannot for the life of me go through with ctb knowing at how upset they already are, I can't drop my suicide on them as well.
As most you know I'm a firm believer in the power of the universe, I look for signs, and all this time it's felt like it's been trying to keep me alive always chucking something at me, well, it seems the universe had pulled it's trump card so to speak. Its stopped me dead in my tracks.
I'm tired broken and worn down. All there is to do is wave the white flag.
On Sunday evening I'll prepare everything like last time, then I will phone crisis team and explain that I've fully made a plan and ALLL there is left to do is the final stage.
Honestly I hope they section me, and keep me there for along time. I don't fucking deal with this shit anymore. I'm not too sure on what to say to ensure my sectioning so please any advice is welcome.

I have to say it feels fucking weird putting my whole life onto here. It's funny, outside of SS no one has fucking clue what I'm going through, you guys have seen it all. And you have all be fucking amazing. I hope someone can at least learn something from this shit show I've created.
As always thank you all.
Peace love and hugs

I'm going to bed now, it's been a fucking day I'll say that.

 

[Xerxes]

If sectioning is the same as institutionalizing, then I definitely wouldn't go through with that. Today wasn't a great day, but no need to make a decision where it'll take your freedom away. Just back to the drawing board, and biding your time.

 

[Swisher]

Have your kit out...just like you said. Tell them the plan. That should do it. Just like you said. And meet people like us irl. If you change your mind in 37 minutes, go ahead...were still here. It's your choice

For fuck sake, I just wrote a whole long post out only for it not fucking post.

I'll try again.
It may be a bit less eloquent than my previous attempt.

I give up, the universe has won.
I spoke to someone very dear to me today, and they have been called back after a routine cancer testing.
I know this will probably be nothing serious, however, they are very upset as well as people around them. I simply cannot for the life of me go through with ctb knowing at how upset they already are, I can't drop my suicide on them as well.
As most you know I'm a firm believer in the power of the universe, I look for signs, and all this time it's felt like it's been trying to keep me alive always chucking something at me, well, it seems the universe had pulled it's trump card so to speak. Its stopped me dead in my tracks.
I'm tired broken and worn down. All there is to do is wave the white flag.
On Sunday evening I'll prepare everything like last time, then I will phone crisis team and explain that I've fully made a plan and ALLL there is left to do is the final stage.
Honestly I hope they section me, and keep me there for along time. I don't fucking deal with this shit anymore. I'm not too sure on what to say to ensure my sectioning so please any advice is welcome.

I have to say it feels fucking weird putting my whole life onto here. It's funny, outside of SS no one has fucking clue what I'm going through, you guys have seen it all. And you have all be fucking amazing. I hope someone can at least learn something from this shit show I've created.
As always thank you all.
Peace love and hugs

I'm going to bed now, it's been a fucking day I'll say that.

 

[Sinbad]

I applaud your decision. May the universe continue to guide you in the right direction.
Good Night.

 

[Thoughtforms]

Are you in the U.K.? Why do you want to be sectioned? My dr said they don't section many people. Only a small percentage. But I know someone who was for slitting his wrists.

 

[Bex83]

we are going to get him sectioned , for his own health. It's for the best

 

[Bex83]

We all know when we need to help someone, the time is now xx

 

[Bex83]

We all know when we need to help someone, the time is now xx

Definitely, thankyou, he wants it :)

 

[TiredHorse]

I'm going to bed now, it's been a fucking day I'll say that.

It does sound like a genuine fucker of a day. Wow.

Like you, I look for signs. Omens and portents. They confuse me, and I am troubled by teasing out whether I am reading them correctly, or just reading into them what I want --consciously or subconsciously-- to see. Looking at the record of the Oracle of Delphi, I'm not the first person troubled by this ambiguity. But in the end, when interpretting such signs, you have to go with your gut. If it is not time for you to end your life, thus has the Universe spoken to you --whether a clarion call or a mumble, you would do well to listen.

You have been handed such proof as might convince no one but yourself --but you are the only one who needs to be convinced, and if you are convinced, do not be dissuaded. You, BurningLights, are too genuine, too honest in the face of emotional adversity, to turn away from a more difficult path.

I don't know whether seeking to be sectioned is a good idea, but I don't know that it isn't, either. Despite the prevalent horror stories, I've heard of it working wonders. Again, trust your gut.

I think I can safely speak for all of us that you are forever welcome and encouraged to seek solace here. And I rather hope you do. As selfish as it is, I am not upset that you have for the time being chosen to turn your back on the bus stop.

I like your presence.

 

[Jupiter]

Take your time BurningLights. This is all I can tell you. You have to be comfortable with the timing. Nobody else.

 

[Lara Francis]

Burning lights you are such a kind,caring and considerate soul.In such enormous inner struggles you put the feeling of others before yourself.
I will personally miss you on here.you have a massive presence.

I was sectioned under a 136 by the police as I told them to leave me alone as I wanted to ctb.I was then taken to hospital, where I stayed for little short of a month.
As my emergency section was lifted i agreed to stay voluntary.
Even when you are voluntary, if you are considered a danger to yourself they will hold you and reject any requests for leave.i tried to discharge myself whilst in voluntary but was told I would be sectioned if I refused to stay.so believe me,once you are in,its difficult to get out !
It was nice to feel safe but restrictions can be frustrating even though they are for your own good.
I really wish you peace and comfort in your decision.
Hugs xx

 

[BurningLights]

Thank you all, this whole journey has been so tiring,I'm at my wit's end.i understand the chances of getting sectioned are slim, this may even backfire in some way, just cause a shit show for a week. I'm reaching out for any hope in the pitch black here. I shall phone the crisis team, see what they say. Right this second as I'm speaking, I'm not bothered on the outcome, I'll go with it ether way, I slept like shit, all I want to do is sleep forever right now

 

[ron_g]

You might get better results when you plan your recovery rather than leaving it to chance or a crisis team of unknown quality. First, have some rest, for a couple of days or a few weeks. Then you can basically organize the activities that a good psychiatric ward offers while still living at home. If you do want to go to a psychiatric hospital, I'd definitely check out reviews of those in your area, as you don't want to end up at a terrible place.

 

[lv-gras]

Thank you all, this whole journey has been so tiring,I'm at my wit's end.i understand the chances of getting sectioned are slim, this may even backfire in some way, just cause a shit show for a week. I'm reaching out for any hope in the pitch black here. I shall phone the crisis team, see what they say. Right this second as I'm speaking, I'm not bothered on the outcome, I'll go with it ether way, I slept like shit, all I want to do is sleep forever right now

thinking of you and care for you, whatever happens

will miss you for a bit one way or hug you the other. although suspect would be there to hug you either way at some point.

anyway, hugs bro.

 

[BurningLights]

Problem is, I don't have time, I wish I did, I've dug myself a hole I can't get out of, and I'm way out of my depth, I've really fucked everything