kunikuzushi
sause
- Jan 24, 2023
- 276
I'm going insane living the same day over and over. My days are spent desperately attempting to find relief from this torture. But nothing makes me feel ok. Everything either reminds me of how much of a failure I am or makes me feel nothing. It's endless boredom and having nothing to do to ease the pain.
I want to end this pain.
I reach out to people and try to nurture friendships to ease the loneliness, but I can't feel any emotional connection to anyone no matter how hard I try, no matter how many years it's been, no matter how much we have in common. I'm just nothing so there's nothing to connect to.
I don't want to go through the rest of tonight with nothing to do. I have about 9 hours until I'll be tired enough to sleep. I try and try to comfort myself with music, videos, games, but I just feel tortured by the fact that I feel nothing. I can't remember the last time I was comforted.
I'm too tired and scared to plan my suicide in detail, so I just keep procrastinating and having to live another day.
I want to end this pain.
I reach out to people and try to nurture friendships to ease the loneliness, but I can't feel any emotional connection to anyone no matter how hard I try, no matter how many years it's been, no matter how much we have in common. I'm just nothing so there's nothing to connect to.
I don't want to go through the rest of tonight with nothing to do. I have about 9 hours until I'll be tired enough to sleep. I try and try to comfort myself with music, videos, games, but I just feel tortured by the fact that I feel nothing. I can't remember the last time I was comforted.
I'm too tired and scared to plan my suicide in detail, so I just keep procrastinating and having to live another day.