Terry A. Davis
Member
- Aug 28, 2023
- 47
I've recently started a new job. I'm going to kick the arse out of it and hope I somehow find happiness and fulfillment from it.
But i'm under no illusions. Life isnt going to be smooth sailing this year and if anything, it might be the most difficult year of my life so far. I can feel it in my bones its going to be incredibly difficult.
I'm doing well at the job so far but it's a viper den of gossping liars and jealous people. I have to put on an act at this place and pretend to be another personality. I am trying to show my bosses that I am capable as soon as I can to hopefully get a promotion and have less work to do (which is what would happen).
I will also try to get another girlfriend this year and theres one girl at work I get on with quite well. I'm more than willing to give it a shot if it happens because as I said, if everything goes wrong then i'll just ctb and get it over and done with. Don't give a shit about relationships at work issues or whatever anymore.
It's freeing in a way because I fully realised this year that life is an illusion and we are fucked up because we think we exist as seperate people. It's hard to describe but I genuinely believe humans are supposed to experience life like a cat or dog or other wild animal. Just playing and experiencing this mad trip called life having no concept of ego (other than self defence) or ideas of language or competition and success. Humanity has been mentally ill for thousands of years. It's not recent in my opinion. Making cities is an incredibly mentally ill thing for humans to do. It's like a corruption of our need to connect with one another. Humans feel an incredible need to connect which is healthy and good. But the creation of cities throws so many more people into a single space than we can cope with and so we feel more disconnected than ever.
But yeah. We're supposed to expeirence life like a cat just playing eating shitting and fucking. Even talking to eachother is just gibberish we all understand. Your language is gibberish to my ears and if English wasnt so well known I would sound as though I speak gibberish to yours.
Idk where im going with this but yeah. Giving it another shot. Wish me luck.
But i'm under no illusions. Life isnt going to be smooth sailing this year and if anything, it might be the most difficult year of my life so far. I can feel it in my bones its going to be incredibly difficult.
I'm doing well at the job so far but it's a viper den of gossping liars and jealous people. I have to put on an act at this place and pretend to be another personality. I am trying to show my bosses that I am capable as soon as I can to hopefully get a promotion and have less work to do (which is what would happen).
I will also try to get another girlfriend this year and theres one girl at work I get on with quite well. I'm more than willing to give it a shot if it happens because as I said, if everything goes wrong then i'll just ctb and get it over and done with. Don't give a shit about relationships at work issues or whatever anymore.
It's freeing in a way because I fully realised this year that life is an illusion and we are fucked up because we think we exist as seperate people. It's hard to describe but I genuinely believe humans are supposed to experience life like a cat or dog or other wild animal. Just playing and experiencing this mad trip called life having no concept of ego (other than self defence) or ideas of language or competition and success. Humanity has been mentally ill for thousands of years. It's not recent in my opinion. Making cities is an incredibly mentally ill thing for humans to do. It's like a corruption of our need to connect with one another. Humans feel an incredible need to connect which is healthy and good. But the creation of cities throws so many more people into a single space than we can cope with and so we feel more disconnected than ever.
But yeah. We're supposed to expeirence life like a cat just playing eating shitting and fucking. Even talking to eachother is just gibberish we all understand. Your language is gibberish to my ears and if English wasnt so well known I would sound as though I speak gibberish to yours.
Idk where im going with this but yeah. Giving it another shot. Wish me luck.
