Venting I'm determined to do CTB but I'm afraid of turning into a vegetable or being found before I've killed myself.

[sla_porra22]

I'm considering two different methods. I haven't decided which one yet. However, I'm afraid of failing and turning into a vegetable. I think that's still the only thing that's stopped me from trying yet. Does anyone know how I can deal with this fear? It's the only thing missing for me to try. But it seems so difficult. I also don't want to be found before my time and spend the rest of my life listening to my family saying a bunch of crap to me like they did (and still do) to my sister since she tried to kill herself. I hope I succeed, but if I fail, my life gets much worse

 

[FuneralCry]

I really understand, I also fear the same, I find it so horrific how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture as a result and the fact that people even have to fear this is such terrible, extreme cruelty, I always suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be at peace from the terrible mistake of existence, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

 

[sla_porra22]

I really understand, I also fear the same, I find it so horrific how trying to cease existing can go wrong and lead to way worse suffering and torture as a result and the fact that people even have to fear this is such terrible, extreme cruelty, I always suffer so unbearably from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing so finally I can be at peace from the terrible mistake of existence, I hope you find the freedom you search for.

YESSSS EXACTLY. I wish death wasn't viewed so negatively in society. Perhaps they could provide safer and more humane methods for ending life. I hope you also find the freedom you seek. Existence is horrible

 

[SufferingDev]

Good suicide is planned suicide - there are resources on this forum that can help with "safe" methods - about being found - it all depends on what your situation is - best if you live alone or take a hotel room - there are methods that don't make noise so getting one night hotel room, locking yourself and doing it is an option - if you do it in the evening nobody shall find you for some time - enough for you to die.