I'm beyond confused

[searchingforpeace]

I have horrible mental and physical disabilities and was ready to end it with SN but now I read more and more reports that you could survive with damage and I worry I could make my situation even worse. I feel like there's no escape from my situation i'm so scared. I'm absolutely exhausted from this disability and there's no answers for it and every time I've gone to the hospital they just sent me home in worse shape. I have no hope left and I'm worried I'm going to screw up The suicide and make my situation even worse
All I want to do is walk normal again that's the only hope I had but my walking is horrible there seemed to be no answers and I can't take it any more
All I want to do is walk normal again that's the only hope I had but my walking is horrible there seemed to be no answers and I can't take it any more
I'm struggling to live alone even with home health aides and help from my family I fall i'm on the ground a lot of the time crawling in agony. I don't know what to do I wish somebody could save me from this it's terrifying and I'll be doing it for 9 years
Sorry I hope you don't mind me Venting I wish God would just take me for love of God

 

[FuneralCry]

I'm sorry you have to suffer so unbearably in this existence, it's so horrific to me how there's all this suffering and torture in existing, it sounds like you've suffered so much, I wish you the best.