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deletedaccount30982

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Mar 10, 2020
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I feel so jaded. I get pissed off much easier. I'm sick of being told the same bullshit all the time. "You're young, you have so much life left to live". "Everything in your life is going so well, enjoy it!" "You've made it this far, you're so strong!" "If you really wanted to die you would've been dead a long time ago". All of these empty platitudes are exhausting. And no one seems to listen to my rebuttals. I'm sick of having to explain myself over and over. I'm sick of having to justify why I want to die. Why I should be allowed to die. I just get pissed off. I want to tell every last person who tells me this shit to fuck right off. I'm not an angry or aggressive person, but as of late I feel myself just getting to frustrated. Maybe it's a sign my bus is coming.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
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I cannot stand those people with their insensitive toxic positivity. In my opinion, there isn't much point trying to make other people understand as so many people refuse to see suicide as being a valid option.
 
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deletedaccount30982

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I cannot stand those people with their insensitive toxic positivity. In my opinion, there isn't much point trying to make other people understand as so many people refuse to see suicide as being a valid option.
People keep fucking telling me that shit on here too. I'm not asking people to tell me to kill myself or tell me "damn your life sucks just give up", but the toxic positivity is exhausting. If I wanted to be told that shit I'd be in the recovery section. And then I constantly have to remind people of all of the shit I've done to try and get better just to get them to shut the fuck up with the "just keep trying, have you tried therapy???" bullshit. I'm sick of it. Turns me off of wanting to talk here anymore.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,870
Yeee I relate and I think Jaded is a good way to describe it for myself personally as well...

The empty platitudes and maybe less empty encouragement is just 😮‍💨😮‍💨😮‍💨 exhausting and at times makes me really angry.

I think personally im becoming more jaded in that I'm probs slipping into depressive thinking but it's getting harder to be positive and its getting harder to see beyond problems and even enjoy the "little things" in life.

Another empty platitude I hate is "just take it day by day" like okkk that maybe works for some but even without my health issues that make it very difficult.. not everyone's brain even works like that. Like Im a more of an "A-type" of person(?) I love planning. Taking it day by day when I can't even envision a future worth living anymore is just 😮‍💨 depressing for me.

Anyway all that to say I can understand the feeling of feeling jaded. Some folks cannot put their selves in other peoples shoes so they just sprout off bullshit they think is helpful but its just more isolating and frustrating to not be heard.


I hear ya
 
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