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Ya seems like edging really close to death makes some people understandably hesitant
So to be clear, the antinauseant did do most of the job, but you still threw up a little but not completely enough to get rid of the SN? And I'm assuming if it wasn't just 6-7 dabs, and the whole 25g, you wouldn't be talking about it now?
Thank you for sharing this
We talked not too long ago. Helped me find a source for SN. You're a good man/woman. If you didn't intend to do so, I hope you're doing okay. If not, well, I at least hope that you finally found peace.
Thank you so much. I want to but I am scared of even more medical debt and my mother and sister would treat me horribly because of this. I don't want to be pushed into another attempt.
Serious health professionals would certainly not disclose anything, even to your mom and sister.
you can also just make a general medical check up without saying why you don't feel good
Omg. You're alive:)
You're right, I'll do that. I do feel okay now. I can eat, drink, walk, sleep. All of that. I just checked the color of my blood and it's okay. I just collapsed a lot on the floor while trying to get to the bathroom, so my body is covered with bruises. I also fell onto my head. I woke myself up every hour just to check if I can still remember my name and birthdate. I seem to be doing fine, but I'll definitely get myself checked up at the doctors. Thank you for the advice.
Yes please do this
Take care of your head also now, at least by lots of rest and good healthy food to restore your body.One should wear a helmet during attempt with sn. ;)
I think I passed out at one point, but not for long. I remember waking up on the kitchen floor for whatever reason. I think I was trying to get back to bed but got disoriented and then passed out. Other than that, yes, I was conscious the whole time. It was kind of nice while I was just laying in bed, the real nightmare started when I tried to get up. I can only recommend people to have something very close (preferably on your bed if you decide to die there) to vomit into.Yes please do this
So you was conscious all this time? (not taking the sleep time into account)
God yes,
Yes. I was breathing heavily. I tried my best to take deep and slow breaths and it helped me calm down. I also had tinnitus. As if a bomb went off right next to me. But I think that might've been my head injury.
kept checking back on this thread, glad you're still with us
glad to see you are still here! and thank you so much for checking in with us and sharing your experience. I wanted to ask, did you feel delirious? what concerns me is how you woke up on the kitchen floor without remembering how you got there- I'm concerned I will do the same. I've heard others calling for help without remembering and waking up in a hospital. is this the SN, do you think? or was it the alcohol/some other med?
