Joansoon
Member
- Jul 7, 2024
- 8
Well the guy who broke up with me at the beginning of July, officially told me today that he doesn't want me to reach out or video call him anymore/again.
I kept hope that we'd work things out but clearly that's not happening. I mean I asked him if he still wanted to talk to me because he was being very hot /cold in his behaviour but it still hurts.
He said he's very stressed and he needs to focus on himself totally for his full recovery. I feel like such a burden. I can't say anything because he's allowed to feel how he does but I feel discarded. I guess I'm being childish and petulant.
To top it off, I'm anxious attachment, so I'm not doing well. And this was just another reminder that I literally don't have anything going for me and nothing to look forward to. I have to let go of my dream of being with him, a life together, and all the goodness our interactions had.
I feel so sad and depressed AGAIN. And I hate that talking to ppl irl, they tell you change your thinking, get over it etc. If it was that easy - trust I'll do it. I don't want to feel this way but I do.
I still wish he comes back when he feels better but he won't. Maybe it's just a cop out too to go out with someone else.
I wish I could manifest dying in my sleep. That would be an easy way out.
I kept hope that we'd work things out but clearly that's not happening. I mean I asked him if he still wanted to talk to me because he was being very hot /cold in his behaviour but it still hurts.
He said he's very stressed and he needs to focus on himself totally for his full recovery. I feel like such a burden. I can't say anything because he's allowed to feel how he does but I feel discarded. I guess I'm being childish and petulant.
To top it off, I'm anxious attachment, so I'm not doing well. And this was just another reminder that I literally don't have anything going for me and nothing to look forward to. I have to let go of my dream of being with him, a life together, and all the goodness our interactions had.
I feel so sad and depressed AGAIN. And I hate that talking to ppl irl, they tell you change your thinking, get over it etc. If it was that easy - trust I'll do it. I don't want to feel this way but I do.
I still wish he comes back when he feels better but he won't. Maybe it's just a cop out too to go out with someone else.
I wish I could manifest dying in my sleep. That would be an easy way out.
