I’m afraid that I’ll cause my friend to ctb as well

[lost in my mind]

I want to ctb so bad, but I have a friend I met in the hospital, she means the world to me and I love her so much and she always tells me how mcuh she love me and that she doesn't know what she would do without me ... she suffers from depression and suicidal thoughts as well and I'm so scared that if I'll ctb I'll cause her to just give up and do it .
I'm stuck and I literally can't seem to ctb because of that.

 

[wendydong1]

Maybe your friend gives a reason to live?