I've done horrible things. Starting today Im abstaining from stories and fanfics, my sources of happiness. It's made me feel kinda hard-headed but also calm. Idk how to describe it.i wish there were a way I could accept that I am subhuman and insults from people who hate creatures like me fully while feeling a calm sense of dread instead of calm and dread, no matter what insult comes my way. I'd like to read stories again. I just don't wanna feel like a human while doing it. Things are kinda confusing.
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