Venting I'm a faker

[Sylveon]

I couldn't do it; I had it wrapped around my neck, and all I needed was to step off, but I couldn't bring myself to do it. This is how I always imagined it to go, and I messed it up, and the worst part is that I don't even feel anything; I feel so desensitised to the thought of dying that all this feels strangely normal; I've felt worse cutting myself; I hate it; I don't wish to be this apathetic; why can't I be normal even now?

It only makes sense that I'm merely faking it all. I know people will tell me that I'm not, but I know this is what the truth is after all.

 

[lostintheloop]

SI is really hard to overcome no matter how much you want to die . It doesn't make you a faker .

 

[Sylveon]

SI is really hard to overcome no matter how much you want to die . It doesn't make you a faker .

I don't believe so; there's no reason I should have even been here to begin with, yet here I am.

 

[avalon_]

I don't believe so; there's no reason I should have even been here to begin with, yet here I am.

This forum isn't just for people who end up going through with it; it's for anyone who's struggling in life and considers putting an early end to it. You have no reason to feel like a fraud or a faker.

 

[lostintheloop]

I don't believe so; there's no reason I should have even been here to begin with, yet here I am.

The majority of ctb attempts fail , if didn't then a lot less people turning to this site . Fake would not even being suicidal at all and coming on here pretending you are. Which if you tried plan you clearly aren't faking like that. There's a whole spectrum suicidal from fleeting thoughts to successful ctb , no matter where you sit on it , it's not fake and is awful way to feel no matter where

I know i can't convince whatever you believe. But i don't think you're fake