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deathisnear
Experienced
- May 23, 2021
- 284
I'm a fucking failure. I've wanted to die most of my life and get here I am. The thoughts and feelings continue to intensify and because I don't want to hurt a handful of people, I stay and I suffer and let my thoughts consume me. I have what I need. I know what I want to do and yet I don't do it. I've had dates set, I've been ready for years and yet here I am, still in pain, still wanting to die, still yearning for peace and the sweet release of death. I fucking hate myself, I'm a fucking failure.