Venting I’m a coward

[IronTusk]

I saw a video of an 11 year old girl who hanged her self and streamed it. She has exponentially more courage than me, a coward who can't even muster the courage to buy N and use it. I guess some people have the ability to end their lives and some don't. I might be in the second group.

 

[Empty Smile]

Ctb is no easy task. If it was, everyone would be doing it. Don't be so hard on yourself.

 

[TAW122]

I agree with @Empty Smile, CTB'ing is one of the most difficult, if not the most difficult tasks a human being can face. Overcoming SI, being familiar with the methods' reliability, and planning carefully to avoid detection as well as being rescued/intervened, and more. It's not easy, even for those with reliable methods such as firearms, EB (exit bag), or N.

 

[spanishguy22]

younger people act more easily actually on instict because the prefrontal cortex of emotions and intelligence isnt well developed like yours is

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I saw a video of an 11 year old girl who hanged her self and streamed it. She has exponentially more courage than me, a coward who can't even muster the courage to buy N and use it. I guess some people have the ability to end their lives and some don't. I might be in the second group.

Can you post the link maybe put it in a spoiler.

But I hear you I have seen several times in the news the last 6 month about kids or pre-teens killing themselves yet I am still here.

 

[spanishguy22]

i remember readin about a guy in UK high school who had everything, total chad: lots of friends gf and good looks, sports guy.
he commited suicide a year ago after a falling out with gf, only like 18 yo. And here I am, since 11 lonely af and still suffering for years in comparison to him.