I’ll never ever ever ever ever ever enjoy my life

[anyoneshorizon]

I am very frustrated, all my effort will mean nothing, I must be insane because I keep thinking things will change.

Money and it's idea makes things easier but I
have not changed from who I always been. Small sparks of confidence rise from time to time.

I don't hate my life I hate me and I try to change and I hate the reason that I hate myself.

I am always going to return to this self hating routine.
I hope I die in some accident soon because I can't stand this.
I am going to buy a gun so i can give all this bad thoughts an exit.

 

[actual_fox]

Why do you hate yourself? Hate world instead- It is much healthier.
Don't hate the player - hate the game.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing certainly can be torture and it must be painful and hard to deal with being in that situation. I do see life as being very disappointing overall and unsatisfying and it sounds like you have suffered a lot. Your feelings of wishing to be free from everything are understandable, even know I would ideally rather die at a time of my own choosing, I do always envy those who die in accidents.

 

[Wannagonow]

I haven't enjoyed life for a long time. I will admit that because I've felt this way for so long, I don't really look for things to enjoy either. So...nothing will change. I'm okay with that. I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I hope you find peace in whatever way works for you.