Ill look for excuses, and look and keep looking until Im dead

[Surai]

It was because of this or maybe this, such a sad pursuit for a reason of why Im feeling like this. But my body will keep looking as in a last ditch effort to save itself, maybe its my habits? , Maybe it was the bad man, maybe it was what I ate at the night before, maybe it was because I didn't get enough sleep, you know what that might be it, but why was I restless? Oh maybe because you forget to comfort yourself at the end of the day, But why should I have to do that? Maybe it was, you know what you are right. I give up too, Ill just make us weaker the things you could lift will feel heavier, the thoughts you could handle will just beat you down more, Of all things you wanted to forget , you'll remember, And there will be one thing I wont let you forget, how much this all wears you out and what you'll have no choice but to do.