Discussion If you were to take SN, what would you do in the 15 minutes it takes to get unconscious?

[whybother2002]

I want to die so much but this part scares me. I've read people here talking about listening to their playlist — I don't think this will calm me. What if I embrace the death watching beautiful movie scenes? I don't know. It's really hard. I don't have access to alprazolam or diazepam anymore since I tried OD.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

finally feel some joy because i finally did something rational to solve all my problems at once forever , the greatest victory of all time

 

[betternever2havbeen]

Think I'm gonna post my experience on here so am not alone and hope ppl can calm me down and hope to god I don't panic and call for an ambulance. I don't think I'd be able to concentrate on doing anything else.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

Might be harsh, but if you're scared when you ingest the SN, you shouldn't do it in the first place. Take some time to question why you're scared of it, determine whether you actually want to go through the process, and only if you're able to assuage your fears should you make that choice. For me, if I do decide to take SN, it's because I've made the decision I truly want to die, which is why I'll be fine listening to a playlist as I wait for my last sleep to take hold. There's a fine line between survival instinct and being scared to die that this forum often conflates and it matters.

 

[Mira Gaga]

I'd probably still be self harming and cutting to make sure I get the job done. Maybe add a little antifreeze for good measure. Maybe also some painkillers or booze to numb the pain I guess.

 

[vira]

I'd probably still be self harming and cutting to make sure I get the job done. Maybe add a little antifreeze for good measure. Maybe also some painkillers or booze to numb the pain I guess.

blood might make you feel nauseous, if you were considering this and it wasnt a hypothetical

 

[Mira Gaga]

blood might make you feel nauseous, if you were considering this and it wasnt a hypothetical

True. Maybe asphyxiation? I'd go through with Plan B just in case Plan A doesn't work.

 

[whybother2002]

Might be harsh, but if you're scared when you ingest the SN, you shouldn't do it in the first place. Take some time to question why you're scared of it, determine whether you actually want to go through the process, and only if you're able to assuage your fears should you make that choice. For me, if I do decide to take SN, it's because I've made the decision I truly want to die, which is why I'll be fine listening to a playlist as I wait for my last sleep to take hold. There's a fine line between survival instinct and being scared to die that this forum often conflates and it matters.

I understand, and it's not a fear of death. Humans are not robots. I've been contemplating suicide for a long time. I can't stand to live. Yet I'm certain that some anxiety will hit me. When I tried to OD it made me agitated. They even recommend xanax in the SN Bible. It's not as simple as the Elephant Man sleeping for the last time, as romantic as that might be.

 

[UserFromNowhere]

I understand, and it's not a fear of death. Humans are not robots. I've been contemplating suicide for a long time. I can't stand to live. Yet I'm certain that some anxiety will hit me. When I tried to OD it made me agitated. They even recommend xanax in the SN Bible. It's not as simple as the Elephant Man sleeping for the last time, as romantic as that might be.

That's fair. I'm not of the belief that humans are robots, but neither do I believe we're animals controlled by biochemical responses. Which is why I am left to wonder what I will experience in my final moments. Some people have said they felt relief, others felt enough panic to call emergency services, where each person lies is their own experience which cannot be determined until they commit to it.

 

[Csmith8827]

I want to die so much but this part scares me. I've read people here talking about listening to their playlist — I don't think this will calm me. What if I embrace the death watching beautiful movie scenes? I don't know. It's really hard. I don't have access to alprazolam or diazepam anymore since I tried OD.

Not trying to hijack your thread but how is diazepam? I've been considering getting it but my funds aren't ready yet... they are....I have money I just don't want to spend it on that yet...if that makes sense. When I have more I will...but I've only taken Valium once or twice before...it was nice tho from what I recall...

 

[Metro]

I would love to be able to listen to the megaplaylist I've built up over a few years but it's like few hours long so probably just listening to one song and doing my best not to throw up

 

[LostZombie]

I would just lay in bed, fall asleep, and peacefully drift off into my death. Just making it feel like any other day nothing special, just a normal day with a peaceful end to my life.

 

[monetpompo]

i would like to chill out in bed and not have to think about anything. i would probably feel anxious. i'd have everyone's number on my phone blocked so i don't text them anything out of panic. i think that i would just want to close my eyes and listen to some music. the certainty of death must feel like a safety blanket.