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claracatchingthebus

claracatchingthebus

Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
Jun 22, 2025
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When I last tried to poison myself to death, after I took the stuff I cried and waited and then there was the physical pain of vomitting. I was just waiting, and nervous. The idea that somehow it will be easy is probably not realistic. I did survive that poisoning attempt but it hurt really bad. I have a hard time believing SN would hurt more, but I suppose I can't know. I was in screaming writhing pain at points, but it was a poison known for being painful, and I just took it anywya because I lacked options.
 
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L'appel Du Vide

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Sep 18, 2025
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A DMT breakthrough could be an incredible way to go from conscious to oxygen loss. Maybe also terrifying if you came out of it during the conscious confusion state though, if timed too early. What if you could just go straight from the trip into whatever the NDE experience is like with this method, or straight into oblivion? Would the trip be changed by loss of oxygen to the brain? You might not be in your body for the physical side effects that poisoning would cause. I don't know if I would actually try it though.

Besides that I think I just have music to listen to and final thoughts to express if I wanted to leave behind notes or an audio recording.
 
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claracatchingthebus

claracatchingthebus

Clara seems to be waiting for something. But what?
Jun 22, 2025
427
A DMT breakthrough could be an incredible way to go from conscious to oxygen loss. Maybe also terrifying if you came out of it during the conscious confusion state though, if timed too early. What if you could just go straight from the trip into whatever the NDE experience is like with this method, or straight into oblivion? Would the trip be changed by loss of oxygen to the brain? You might not be in your body for the physical side effects that poisoning would cause. I don't know if I would actually try it though.

Besides that I think I just have music to listen to and final thoughts to express if I wanted to leave behind notes or an audio recording.
omg i would never do this, how terrifying

With so many hard drugs you can barely think at all, ie acid ketamine etc, you coukd end up forgetting why you wanted to die and be left with only the terror of death.

If i am dying, by choice, i want to remember the cruelty and the frustration to help make the fear less painful. Gosh, people have just been so fucking mean to me, all the damn time.
 
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FadingSnowFake

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Nov 25, 2024
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Daydreaming about what could've been, remembering who mattered, and berating myself for where I went wrong.
 
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dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
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Pet my dogs one last time, then play skyrim lol
I wouldn't have my pets near me because if I vomit they would probably lick it up and possibly die too. Just something to keep in mind.
omg i would never do this, how terrifying

With so many hard drugs you can barely think at all, ie acid ketamine etc, you coukd end up forgetting why you wanted to die and be left with only the terror of death.

If i am dying, by choice, i want to remember the cruelty and the frustration to help make the fear less painful. Gosh, people have just been so fucking mean to me, all the damn time.
Ketamine feels amazing. Even though it didn't help my depression, it felt like I had left my body and died. It was so peaceful.
 
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Nightfoot

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Aug 7, 2025
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I'd like to think I would just relax and wait, but I might just as easily (or even more likely) be freaked out knowing I was about to die and feeling it happen.
 

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