Story If you see this, I may be dead

[GreenLBMD]

I'm putting this note as a failsafe in case I am gone before I can write another.

To speak in matter not art, I am sick of myself. I am unable to do anything within a pre set window of time. Procrastination is what it is. But to the point where the whole of my day to day is now stained by the inaction of the days before it. The girl I liked liked me back, I fucking procrastinated and now shes taken. I don't believe there is much hope for me to get better. If you know my username from somewhere else then I am sorry you had to see this.

If I respond to this within the day it is posted then I have decided to continue. If not, then goodbye.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Do you really not think there'll be other girls?

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you all the best in whatever you decide.

 

[sugarh1gh]

I hope you found peace.

 

[thirdtimesthecharmg]

Do you really not think there'll be other girls?

Having been in a different but somewhat similar situation of lost love due to my failures, it's not that there couldn't be others...but if I fucked up this badly once, then I will again. And I can't take constantly doing the wrong thing.

 

[MM's the name]

Sorry about that friend. I've gotten rejected more than 30 times friend, it might suck but move on and next time don't screw up.
Jesus loves you and I do too.

Your choice friend.

 

[GreenLBMD]

Not dead just really fuckin stupid.

I forget when exactly this was written but I am not dead. The outlook on life was going up for a while actually! It's gone down again after finding out this same girl may never had liked me. As of right now I don't know what to do. I just play games to pass time until something pulls me elsewhere.

On the upside I have started to try writing down some of my non suicidal thoughts, turns out it helps quite a bit.
I thank those who came here to say goodbye/good luck.

 

[CocoToxBase]

wish you the best