The Disqualified
Disqualified as a Human Being
- Feb 4, 2023
- 224
I am feeling overwhelmed today, more than ever. I have been bed-rotting all day, incapable of getting out of bed. I have just been thinking about suicide all day. I have realized I have nothing to live for.
I can't focus or do anything, I just want to rot away and die. I need to stop using my phone for a month, I need to unplug myself. Technology is the only way for me to distract myself, but I fear if I unplug I will have nothing to do in life and just go insane for good. Perhaps it would be better that way: forcing myself to either make a scene or ctb once and for all with no more delays. I need to unplug myself and run away once and for all. I want to throw my phone out of the window.
I can't live like this. It is horrible. I feel extremely unwell right now. Words can't describe it. Going to put the phone away now. There are many incredible people here. Hope you enjoy the rest of this weekend. Bye
I can't focus or do anything, I just want to rot away and die. I need to stop using my phone for a month, I need to unplug myself. Technology is the only way for me to distract myself, but I fear if I unplug I will have nothing to do in life and just go insane for good. Perhaps it would be better that way: forcing myself to either make a scene or ctb once and for all with no more delays. I need to unplug myself and run away once and for all. I want to throw my phone out of the window.
I can't live like this. It is horrible. I feel extremely unwell right now. Words can't describe it. Going to put the phone away now. There are many incredible people here. Hope you enjoy the rest of this weekend. Bye
