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existenceissuffering

Member
Sep 12, 2018
91
Both good and bad
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Suffering
 
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deathbycakes

deathbycakes

Member
Sep 14, 2018
97
i wish i was dead a year ago so i don't have to experience my fiancee's death this year..won't be fair to him but at least we'd be together again in the afterlife much quicker.

good thing that i'd be missing is prob infinity wars.
 
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TAW122

TAW122

Emissary of the right to die.
Aug 30, 2018
6,854
I would probably have missed earning my master's degree (not that I care anyhow -- mountains of debt, college is overrated, job market is a joke most of the time), missed my sister's wedding, and as far as the bad things, well I wouldn't have suffered another shitty year.
 
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TiredHorse

Enlightened
Nov 1, 2018
1,819
Great question.

Some good sailing. Two new good friends.

The final, thermonuclear end of my relationship with my Beloved.

End balance: I wish I had ctb.
 
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existenceissuffering

Member
Sep 12, 2018
91
Suffering. Nothing significant stands out. I didn't have anything extraordinary good or bad happen. It's just everyday life is suffering.
 
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15dec

15dec

ember in the dark
Dec 7, 2018
1,550
Wouldn't have lost a few friends, been used by an ex, dated by best friend (and accidentally ruined his life before we broke up). Wouldn't have met some good friends though, or found this community
 
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Lady black

Lady black

35 male, central Europe, German speaking
Oct 22, 2018
1,192
Hell on earth
 
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Fivelimit

Member
Dec 16, 2018
10
A PhD. Nothing much
 
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gnrluver0105

gnrluver0105

Member
Nov 25, 2018
58
Nothing, in fact, September last year, a earthquake happened here, I was in a building that nearly collapsed, sometimes I wish that happened...

This year was the worst, with the end of my 8 year relationship.

Sure, there was small things that I enjoyed, but overall, was a shitty year
 
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Fivelimit

Member
Dec 16, 2018
10
Wouldn't have lost a few friends, been used by an ex, dated by best friend (and accidentally ruined his life before we broke up). Wouldn't have met some good friends though, or found this community
This Makes me sad
 
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MsM3talGamer

Voluntary deletion
Nov 28, 2018
1,504
More pain, sickness, boredom and anger. Should have CTBed last year.
 
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Whatshername

Whatshername

That Ghost Lady on the Hill
Dec 14, 2018
1,352
I'm literally racking my brain to find a good thing in the past year, but I come up empty. Maybe a few good movies, but I can't even enjoy those as I used to. I would have missed out on a lot of suffering, pain and humiliation though.
 
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slowlystarve

slowlystarve

abomination
Dec 10, 2018
43
wouldn't have seen a family member get into a cult and then out of that cult paranoid as shit with an alcohol problem. wouldn't have ever been underweight, moved out on my own, got an 100% average in a class, been coerced, been told it was my own fault that i was miserable by a therapist, visited outside of the country, met some people, etc
 
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Gainax

Gainax

Experienced
Oct 8, 2018
265
The feeling of self disapointment and several years wasted for nothing
 
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EndofMyRope

EndofMyRope

Student
Oct 17, 2018
174
The living hell that has been this past year.
 
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wanttodie

wanttodie

Enlightened
Apr 19, 2018
1,804
Nothing stands out.id have missed
 
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Empty Smile

Empty Smile

The final Bell has rung. Goodbye to all.
Jul 13, 2018
1,785
Nothing, and would expect the same in 2019.
 
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stellabelle

stellabelle

ethereal
Dec 14, 2018
3,919
Not a damn thing, that's the devastating part
 
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anelakapu

Member
Mar 28, 2018
99
A bunch of bullshit
 
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NotWorthLiving

Enlightened
Dec 8, 2018
1,264
Nothing worthwhile
 
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Kyrok

Kyrok

Paragon
Nov 6, 2018
970
The most fun I've had in 15yrs, plus the biggest blunder.
 
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Final Escape

I’ve been here too long
Jul 8, 2018
4,348
I would not have missed out on much. I really wish I could be euthanized like now. :(
 
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Smilla

Smilla

Visionary
Apr 30, 2018
2,549
Suffering
 
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Thoughtforms

Thoughtforms

Experienced
Nov 1, 2018
220
Good -
I got to travel around Europe to some of my dream locations with friends. But honestly I wish I could feel happier about that. I just do it because I have nothing else in my life. I felt empty the whole time.

I met someone who was the most amazing and beautiful guy I've ever met and he made me temporarily really happy.

Got to watch the new Black Mirror!

Started studying again

Bad -
Had my heart broken again and again

Had a terrible time at work - my boss hates me and wants me to leave

Had a mental breakdown and ended up in a psych ward

Tried looking for new jobs and just got rejected

Failed my first module due to my mental breakdown

Became officially old

So basically, I worked really hard, got my hopes up again and again, yet I'm back to square one. I went backwards if anything. This is the pattern of the last few years of my life - trying so hard constantly to be happy and fulfilled but just having it blow up in my face. Anything good that happened was just me filling a void.
 
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not-2-b-the-answer

not-2-b-the-answer

Archangel
Mar 23, 2018
9,388
Both good and bad

BAD:
One less year of misery to get through. :(
WORK …. SO AWFUL :(
I gained more weight. :(

GOOD:
Five Finger Death Punch & Disturbed both released new music. :)
Godsmack released new music. :(
Many bands that I like released new stuff … right now I am tired and can't think of more … and I would make everyone else fall asleep reading the list if I made one. ;)
 
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Aesthler

Aesthler

Death is the only God who comes when you call
Sep 25, 2018
416
If I died naturally or something a year ago, I'd miss out on a lot of heartache and suffering.
I'd miss out on new friendships I've made through the pain, and maybe a few key mental insights about myself
I'd miss out on watching myself become my worst enemy
 
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Fallen bad23

Fallen bad23

Student
Oct 19, 2018
105
Good: I knew for a fact that I'm to blame for the shitty life that I lead and figured that I can slove this dillema if I ctb.
Bad: I knew for a fact that I'm to blame for the shitty life that I lead and figured that I can slove this dillema if I ctb.
:pfff::blarg:
 
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Made4TV

Made4TV

A hopeless hope junkie
Sep 17, 2018
574
Connecting with two cousins more. A trip to another state. That's all the good. The rest was all hell.
 
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