Venting I miss the old days 😔

[KillingPain267]

I miss the times 5-8 years ago when I was in university, going to classes and then coming home to a loving spouse to hug and talk about what to buy or make for dinner. I already had backpain and frequent headaches as well as stressful exams... but it was alright. I had resilience. I had hopes for the future. I had no temptations to drink or do drugs. I had no thoughts to kill myself. My ex even said I had a positive attitude even though I know I always had some cynicism in me.

I miss my old life. I don't want this new fake defeated so-called life. I want my life to just wither away now. I WAS a flowering branch, I bloomed, but now am cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned.

Sorry for posting this here, but I have nobody to vent such of my emotions with anyone to, where it's not awkward.

 

[Hollowman]

You can dm and vent to me anytime I'll listen.

 

[dust-in-the-wind]

I feel the same way. I'm a shell of who I once was just a couple of years ago. Major Depression has me suffocated in its grip. I have lost my will to live and there is no fight left in me. All I think about is wanting to die.