2Min2Midnight

2Min2Midnight

Member
Nov 20, 2019
36
I would opt out of being born in the first place.
 
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chris8000

chris8000

Experienced
Dec 10, 2019
231
I would opt out of being born in the first place.

Not to be born is what I'm after as well. Seems that's where the problems start. Merry Christmas
 
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Hotsackage

Enlightened
Mar 11, 2019
1,030
Death
 
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TimeToBiteTheDust

Visionary
Nov 7, 2019
2,322
Going back to 2012 and erasing my mistakes.
Same but 2014. Before that year I was happy without knowing it. Then all went to shit. The more I think the more I want to die. Everything is so fucked up.
 
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OneBigBlur

OneBigBlur

Experienced
Nov 30, 2019
231
If I could choose anything I'd choose to go to my ideal Heaven.
 
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Nemeshisu

Nemeshisu

Experienced
Dec 25, 2019
236
I would choose nothing, as nothing really would make me happy. I know that being person who I am, I would still end up messing my life somehow no matter how diffrent it would have been.
 
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Cutepoison

Losing all hope was freedom
Dec 22, 2019
191
I would choose nothing, as nothing really would make me happy. I know that being person who I am, I would still end up messing my life somehow no matter how diffrent it would have been.
But if you could choose anything - even erasing your memories or waking up happy, wouldn't you want that?
 
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PeaceisallIwishfor

Member
Dec 4, 2019
78
To be 5 again and restart knowing all the mistakes I made
 
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ghostwannabe

New Member
Dec 21, 2019
3
I think I would just choose to never be born. Maybe a stupid answer but all my problems stem from childhood trauma and I was never and will never be normal no matter what I do. So I guess the only real option now is to CTB.
 
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Nemeshisu

Nemeshisu

Experienced
Dec 25, 2019
236
But if you could choose anything - even erasing your memories or waking up happy, wouldn't you want that?
Ah, Sorry. It was kinda my first impulse to answer nothing. Now thinking about it, I would choose to be born as a cat instead of being a human. I only find human life unbearable. I think that as a cat I would be quite happy.
 
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Chronicillness

Chronicillness

Experienced
Jun 19, 2018
236
I just want this ear ringing to stop. Nothing else. Take my money, take my house and memory, take my job and family, but give me silence back.


I identify with this problem. I have horrific tinnitus. Last night, my apartment complex got the power cut off for a few hours in the middle of the night. It became so quiet in my apartment that you could hear a feather fly through the air. I have to CONSTANTLY have some sort of background noise to drown out the 24/7 tinnitus. Last night when the power went off my tinnitus was magnified. It was pure torture. It was like I had a a fire alarm in my ears. Pure hell.
 
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Sensei

Sensei

剣道家
Nov 4, 2019
6,336
I would choose that no one here would have a reason to be suicidal. It probably sounds incredibly cheesy, but I really mean it.
 
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Carina

Carina

Angelic
Dec 22, 2019
4,005
I would choose that no one here would have a reason to be suicidal. It probably sounds incredibly cheesy, but I really mean it.

That would be nice for most!

When I was trying to think of something I realized there wasn't anything to help me--it would either be never being born, or being dead (the cause of my problems started around age 2-3, eliminate those, and I couldn't have been born, anything else would wipe probably 10+ current adults from the world right now)
 
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LMLN

LMLN

Paragon
Aug 10, 2019
929
To have my husband back!
 
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Not_Quite_Dead_Yet

Not_Quite_Dead_Yet

Student
Oct 27, 2018
134
Good physical health. With that, I could handle whatever needed to be handled.
 
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uglybean18

uglybean18

New Member
Dec 2, 2019
4
I'd choose to go back in time to when I was 9 or 10, with the full knowledge that I am trans, what that means and how unbearable life will end up being if I don't do anything about it. If I could just live my tween and teen years again without having to go through male puberty I would be fine. I'd be going to uni right now. I'd have a life.

Instead, my body is damaged beyond repair. I can't afford surgery to fix the things that surgery can fix and I never will. I have an abusive mother who forces me to go to a college course that I can barely handle doing. I know I'm going to fail the course soon and I'll get kicked out of the house. I'm hoping this will happen soon enough so I can simply sit out in the cold and let myself freeze to death.
 
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Jean4

Jean4

Remember. I am ALWAYS right.... until I’m not
Apr 28, 2019
7,557
To know happiness
 
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porfin1234

porfin1234

Arcanist
Dec 26, 2019
476
Go back to last year and stay in my ideal job and home. Keep going... I was finally doing well and made dumb impulsive life changing decision.
Go back to last year and stay in my ideal job and home. Keep going... I was finally doing well and made dumb impulsive life changing decision.
Go back to last year and stay in my ideal job and home. Keep going... I was finally doing well and made dumb impulsive life changing decision.
 
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k75

k75

L'appel du Vide
Jun 27, 2019
2,546
On December 15, 2010 I had a surgery that simultaneously saved my life and ended it. It left me mutilated, and I can't come to terms with that. I would go back and never have that surgery, and I would probably undo every medical decision I made that entire year. I'd probably be long dead now, but that's better than this.
 
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FullyUnplugged

Member
Dec 25, 2019
26
I would go back and fix mistakes. I have a loving family and had a ton of opportunity's others did not. That's half of my depression knowing I have had most things people only dreamed of and still managed to fuck it up.
 
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Egddios

Egddios

Specialist
Oct 27, 2018
395
To be put under anesthesia and not wake up.

That's how I'd ideally like to go out but the reality is, I'll be drinking SN or hanging.
 
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Brick In The Wall

Brick In The Wall

2M Or Not 2B.
Oct 30, 2019
25,158
Go back to last year and stay in my ideal job and home. Keep going... I was finally doing well and made dumb impulsive life changing decision.
Go back to last year and stay in my ideal job and home. Keep going... I was finally doing well and made dumb impulsive life changing decision.
Go back to last year and stay in my ideal job and home. Keep going... I was finally doing well and made dumb impulsive life changing decision.

Welcome to the forum! I think this is the exact same thing I'd go back to change myself.
 
terry_a_davis

terry_a_davis

Warlock
Dec 28, 2019
707
I'd rewind my life 20 years with the knowledge that i learned by making mistakes. I'd be more considerate of others, less selfish, and not get addicted to drugs.
 
56709

56709

a complete unknown...
Jun 4, 2019
79
to never exist.
it's like the ship of theseus.
it's impossible to retain my identity or the laws of the universe/world that give my identity its meaning and and yet change something crucial enough to make things right... so it's better if the entire thing is erased from top to bottom. I just want this faulty code to be erased as it has no place.
 
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hatelife

Experienced
Oct 13, 2019
269
I think I would just choose to never be born. Maybe a stupid answer but all my problems stem from childhood trauma and I was never and will never be normal no matter what I do. So I guess the only real option now is to CTB.
same
 
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Jul 31, 2018
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Health.
For me at least, everything else is do-able.
 
HereToday

HereToday

Arcanist
Dec 27, 2019
437
I'd choose to go back and do it all again, knowing what I know now. I wouldn't waste time on capitalist bullshit (University, work, etc) and would just move to South America where I'd volunteer until I died of old age.
 

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