Venting If suicide is actually something easy to accomplish would you had left this existence a long time ago?

[LaVieEnRose]

Sounds awfully accurate, ahaha.

Mist in German= manure

Isn't a fine mist so refreshing in the summertime?

 

[sadandlonely99]

FUCK YES

 

[stilhavinightmares]

100% would've been dead like 13 years ago.

 

[Riality]

Death is heaven, hell is earth some of you haven't figured this out

 

[leavingsoon99]

I wouldn't be typing this right now. I'd be long gone.

 

[TransientEternal]

If it really was that easy I'd have died before I hit double digits in age.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Unsure. Part of the reason I'm still here is because I've wanted to hold off till the closest people to me have gone first.

 

[brokeandbroken]

I know I would had, if suicide is as straightforward as just never choosing to wake again I know I would have chosen to leave as soon as I became aware, wanting to die is all that feels right to me.
The eternity of non-existence will always be preferable to this decaying, harmful existence that just leads to suffering and loss but for me the problem lies in how it's so unnecessarily difficult to cease existing on our own terms.
It's just something so disgusting and criminal how we were burdened with the ability to exist without a way to instantly find true peace from the horrific mistake that is existence.

For me all the methods are either inaccessible or risky, it will always be inhumane how people have to struggle so much to finally be free. I feel like if one calls suicide easy they are either ignorant or lying as suicide is anything but, it would be so relieving and prevent so much unnecessary suffering if suicide actually is straightforward.

Suicide isn't something I want but something I am being pushed into by societies contempt and disdain for me. Society has basically said well fuck you kill yourself after I was essentially robbed of everything. I've exhausted all options. It's the only one left... That said in terms of the question I am not sure. Most likely. But not a 100%.

 

[Lys_C15H25N3O_d3]

yes it would be easy as a matter of fact i wouldnt even be counting the days... those damn near life-death experiences surely split the brain and overcomplicates everything

 

[onetimereject]

i would be gone already 5 years ago on my first hanging

 

[Epikur]

At the age of 14, 42 years ago !

 

[dragonofenvy]

Yep. People simply don't understand the torment you have to go through every day. They just want you to keep going because the thought that someone can be so hopeless is foreign to them. They call us selfish for wanting it, I think it's selfish to force someone to live in hell each day.

 

[Mäximum]

I don't think I would've done it already if it was easier. The fear of death in general is something I still have. Even if it is a small amount.

 

[hopelessgirl]

I would have a long time ago

 

[hermestrimegistus]

About 11 or 12 years ago. Survival instinct is a bitch

 

[wristcutangel]

would have done so as a kid.

 

[BlazingBob]

I would've been gone in the 1990s.

 

[Amidaa]

Yes i totally agree, if it was that easy i would already be gone be done with it. to finally go on my journey to peace and no suffering, to just finally have the relief of knowing that i won't have to deal with this hellis place or to deal with this existence. because no matter how good you are here or how much you show empathy and compassion bad shit is always waiting in the corner. it just unfair and cruel that they can bring you here without a saying but if we wanna go peacefully they do anything in there power to stop us. that just unfair.

 

[Lost Magic]

I always had visions of blowing my brains out, but I don't live in a country where you can get firearms legally. Tbh, that may be because I have watched too many movies where people killed themselves with guns, however, I still get those visions from time to time.

 

[downfall13]

Yeah, if it was as easy as just deciding not to wake up next morning, I would have already entered eternal sleep long ago.
But I don't like violent methods and don't have access to non violent ones. I don't want to live, but I won't kill myself unless pushed by something.
I'm thinking of getting a set up for full suspension hanging(my preferred method) ready and then just waiting till I reach the right condition to use it. As it stands, I'm definitely not killing myself in near future, unless something unexpected happens. However I'm sure that the future holds no hope and life is only going to get worse, so I won't be surprised if I do indeed kill myself some years down the line.
Honestly, I'm not even sure if I'm sufficiently suicidal to be posting on this forum. I don't want to come across as an attention seeking non-suicidal person. These are just my honest thoughts, as pathetic as they might be.

 

[redacteduser1]

100 percent yes. I have failed CTBs more than I can count because of how complicated it can be to do it so accurately, if it was easy, I think a lot of people would be long gone by now.

 

[Tokugawa_Yoshinobu]

Yes I would have died at 12 already.

 

[nozomu]

Even with a foolproof method at my disposal I still think suicide is the most difficult decision you'll ever have to make as a human being. To cast aside every future possibility, to become nothing, that is huge, it is heavy.

Everyone says if they had N land at their doorstep they'd take it immediately... until they have it. Then, you realize, it's never too late to die. Even if living is fucking awful and excruciating. The big picture of life fucking terrifies me. The things that are too big to solve on my own, they get me so down and make me want to go. But every time I tell myself I gotta harden up to go already. Every time I tell myself it's gotta happen already. Even if I have every detail arranged and accounted for. Even if I sit for hours with my method ready to open it and end it all after fasting all day. The realization that I'd never be able to experience the small joys of existence again. The realization that people, despite their lack of assistance in challenging existences big problems, would be sad to see me go.


A friend from here asked me a question once, that I've never stopped thinking about. "Are you sure you want to cast aside every possibility, good and bad, to achieve peace?"

The answer is I don't... but I will eventually be forced to by circumstances.

 

[sserafim]

Death is heaven, hell is earth some of you haven't figured this out

Ikr, life and this planet are literally hell

 

[Lys_C15H25N3O_d3]

some might fear "surviving" , i know think of the risks of "waking up in a hospital and the loop cycle continues".. then we have serious problems

 

[sserafim]

some might fear "surviving" , i know think of the risks of "waking up in a hospital and the loop cycle continues".. then we have serious problems

Yeah, like sometimes a failed attempt results in more damage than if you had never committed. Surviving is my biggest fear. I'd love to go out with VAS if it weren't so inaccessible and restricted due to this pro-life society…

 

[umopep!sdn128]

I first think of it at the age of 15, because of fucking school, when moronic teachers and classmates get me. So probably if it was easy, I would do it then. But I'm glad I don't, because it looks nothing from todays perspective compared to what happened next. However, I'm reaching a low point now and it's no turning back, so I would have to go for it now, 100%.
Btw, thanks author for interest questions, and forgive me for a bad english, I'm not a good speaker.