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anopenwound

anopenwound

I̸'̷m̵ ̸g̶o̷i̶n̵g̷ ̶h̵o̶m̶e̶.̵
Jul 27, 2024
180
I'm genuine here, I'm not trying to start shit. Regardless of whether I've hurt people or not, those I love are facing hardships because of me. I don't want them to. I keep on wishing I could just disappear and make things easier for them. If my existence is such a burden for them, why keep on living? I don't see any reason why. I just hope I'd die in my sleep, peacefully, and leave this world to the people that are worthy enough to stay.

Why would I stay? What's the point?
 
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Hystearical

Hystearical

In tears
Jul 23, 2022
4,940
Can you explain what leads you to think you are harmful to the people in your life?
 
foggyskies_

foggyskies_

In traveling, companionship- in life, sympathy.
Dec 16, 2024
53
As long as you're alive, you have the potential to help them. You can take action to lessen the burden. If you die, your chances of helping those you love most become 0%. Plus, wouldn't arranging a sudden funeral, other postmortem procedures be more of a hassle on them? I totally relate to the feeling of wanting to dissapear, but unfortunately, we don't erase our entire existence into dust when we die. We may leave the planet, but our body, our loose ends, are still around. As long as you're still breathing, you can be a force of change.

Best of luck!
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,304
They may find it difficult certainly but, they may not actually see it as a burden themselves. Also, given the choice, I imagine they'd prefer to have you alive but needing support, rather than dead. That's not meaning to guilt trip you. That's more just guessing at the situation.
 
OutcastsAlwaysMourn

OutcastsAlwaysMourn

Black heart
Feb 9, 2025
33
You might provide more to these people than you realise. There is always companionship and love, and caring for you might even be a purpose to keep going for them. Provide help and comfort where you can, how you can. Be a good listener, make people smile and laugh, be a shoulder to cry on or someone to vent too.
 

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