If I had second thoughts...

[rs929]

I want so badly to CTB but at the same time there is a glimmer of hope in me. So I want to order SN just in case, but there's a problem: what if I want to throw it away? I would have to order 200g and that's quite a lot to throw to the garbage or down the drain. I don't think there are places for toxic residues where I live. I would have to call a specialized company to pick it up, and they would ask questions..... What do I do?

 

[bankai]

I just ordered a pull up bar a few minutes ago. I'll be using it to partial hang myself.I feel like it's the safest way. Not sure about using drugs.That being said, man would i love to shave , wear my best clothes and just take some nembutal, put one leg over the other and just go to sleep like a king.I wouldn't trust any source i buy from though, personally.

 

[platypus77]

I want so badly to CTB but at the same time there is a glimmer of hope in me. So I want to order SN just in case, but there's a problem: what if I want to throw it away? I would have to order 200g and that's quite a lot to throw to the garbage or down the drain. I don't think there are places for toxic residues where I live. I would have to call a specialized company to pick it up, and they would ask questions..... What do I do?

I don't think it's something worth overthinking.

If for some reason your life takes a turn for the upside and you think you'll be better of throwing it away, do it.

In fact, I don't think anyone would judge you for it.

It's not that much to cause any harm to the environment more than the anything else we do on daily basis.

 

[cassie]

can you trust yourself to not use it impulsively? then i think its worth to consider ordering it. the shelflife is immense - this will last you years to come.
quite some people reported feeling more at peace, knowing that they have an option at their disposal if things get too dire.
but theres also been a bunch of people who ended up using it on impulse - which seems bitter.

EDIT: also if you consider throwing it away, you can really just dispose of it in the drain/toilet, 200g is nothing in the grand scheme of things

 

[Lyn]

I want so badly to CTB but at the same time there is a glimmer of hope in me. So I want to order SN just in case, but there's a problem: what if I want to throw it away? I would have to order 200g and that's quite a lot to throw to the garbage or down the drain. I don't think there are places for toxic residues where I live. I would have to call a specialized company to pick it up, and they would ask questions..... What do I do?

Even though taking it to some disposal site would be the most correct way of doing so, throwing it down the drain is not that bad as it may seem.
It's not an advice, just my raw calculations so take them with a grain of salt:

Typical household water consumption starts from around 100 liters per person/per day.
Dissolving your 200 grams would total in a concentration of 2mg/l which falls within generally accepted level of nitrites content (1-5mg/l).

And in terms of sewers... well it's pretty much nothing. And I'm not taking into account all the purification systems and "nitrite=>nitrate" conversion.

But if you have the thought that you might impulsively throw it away instead of letting it just sit somewhere in your drawer, maybe it's worth thinking twice about whether it might lead to an impulsive decision to take it?
Impulsivity is not the best way of doing things.

Though I understand how comforting it could be having a way out by hand.