"I'd like to feel a bit better/ I'd like to recover" Support Group Megathread

[Praestat_Mori]

Unfortunately, this thread became very inactive in recent months.

I just want to find a way to feel safe again. I'm so afraid all the time and have no hope for the future.

I don't even know if I count as "recovering" because I'm only staying alive so I don't transfer my pain to my mom. But I can't see a future of safety or happiness for myself and I don't know how long I'll be able to go on only living for someone else.

The loudest voice in my head all the time is "You are not safe, you will never be safe" and I just want it all to stop. But all I can do is put a bandaid on a gunshot wound by playing youtube videos and podcasts all the time to drown that voice out. Nothing else helps me.

EDIT: uuups idk, it seems I forgot to write what I wanted to say.

Welcome to the Recovery Megathread!

Why do you feel unsafe? What bothers you? Is there sth that is causing this? Can this issue be solved? If you know that you might be able to find a solution. Why don't you have hope for the future?

Someone broke my trust and did it during my lowest, most vulnerable state. I survived it but now I'm experiencing the after effects (anxiety and overanalyzing stuff). I hate experiencing this part of being hurt (enduring the pain). I know I'll get better, but this just sucks lol. I have friends, but I cannot pester them all the time. I try to keep myself distracted. I just hope I could recover quickly this time.

Welcome to the Recovery Megathread!